i'm 19 and i'm NOT the youngest in my family :)

people: how old are you?

me: me? i'm 19 :)

people: oh.. (look surprise) you look..... young

me: haha (awkward laugh)..

people: you must be the youngest in your family then.. or maybe anak tunggal?

me: err.. i'm the eldest. i have a 17-year-old brother.. :)

i don't know why but the two common things that people would ask me is my age and am i the youngest.. errr.. actually i DO know.. =..= it's because of my size. i'm small, petite, short, cute. ^^

they sometimes compare me to my brother (he looks more like my abang than my adik)..

people: (referring to my bro) so, form berapa?

bro: form 5

people: (now referring to me) oohhh.. so this one is in form 3?

me: err.. i'm the eldest.. i'm 19. :)

people: oh.. kakak lagi kecik dari adik.. hahaha

and my brother will od the double jerk eyebrow EVERYTIME..

whatever.. makes me feel young EVERYDAY! ^^ small is cute!

TAILOR TAYLOR :)

sent my kain to the tailor last month to be made  into baju kurung..

madam said, "ambil hujung bulan nanti."

came back as told, but the baju kurung belum siap.

went there again last saturday,

showed the reciept,

should be done for its already month.

nope. we have to help the tailor search for our own baju kurung which was nowhere to be seen.

how can you find anything in a place soooo big, yet soooo messy.

kainss everywhere.

madam said, "call me on monday. we try to find your baju first oo."

as a muslim on ramadhan, patience is needed.

called them today.

whatta you know.. the kainss are still kainss.. belum jadi baju punn.. =..=

mama said, "i don't care how you do it, but i want it by this saturday. we're going off next week."

2 baju kurungss and a baju melayu.

i pray that you can make it by saturday madam. :)

P/S: 11 more days to go!! woohoo~~

*psyched* XD

i'm the lucky 100th follower!! hahaha.. can't really believe it myself! i never actually won any lucky draw before... maybe i wasn't so lucky? errrr... but i just did! hahaha..i followed FARAB'S BLOG like a loooooong time ago actually.. but i can't see myself in his follower list (perlu ka?).. so i re-FOLLOWED his blog.. whatta know.. i'm the lucky 100th follower! ^^

 alaa... i won a RM10 celcom topup je punnnnn... no big deal. but still, i won something! THANK YOU FARAB!

P/S: HAPPY WORLD LEFTIES DAY TO ALL LEFTIES OUT THERE!

:)

I'M PROUD TO BE A SARAWAKIAN :)

STOP BEING A RACIST!!  >:(

i read something on facebook. posted by a MALAYSIAN (obviously):

"aku rase bila masuk unimas nanti, bahasa sarawak tuh, mcm dah jd bahasa wajib la plak kn?senior sume ckp sarawak, png doe aku, die ingt aku anak iban ke ape -______________-"

what happen to 1 MALAYSIA? why must we question all this? we SARAWAKIAN are no different from the others. maybe we speak different from the others, but that's what makes MALAYSIA a unique country, right?

:)
- i don't know if i misunderstand what she said. if yes, i'm sorry. just expressing my my thoughts. :)

my loneliness is killing me~

some might say that i'm weird, a freak. i say: THAT'S JUST WHO I AM.

tell me, do you like feeling lonely? the times when you feel empty in the inside, and there's no one around to entertain you.. the times when you feel like jumpinng up and down, banging your head to the wall, stomping your feet until the ground cracks, screaming on top of your lungs unitl you can't scream no more. the times when all there's left around you is TV, your guitar (which you don't even know how to play it and why the fuck do you have it in the first place), your laptop and voice inside your head telling you to do stuffs.. I DON'T LIKE THAT KINDA FEELING. wait.. lemme try that again.. I HATE THAT FEELING.

however, that's just how i felt for the past few weeks after my cousin went back to KL after her 8 months internship here, and after i went to KUCHING accompanying my mum to see an orthopaedic regardng her vertebrae. aaahh... how i want to go back to that time even though it was just a few weeks back. haha

now i'm back at home.. "my loneliness is killing me" as what my old friend britney says. SLOWLY. the only way to not feel lonely is to have my friends around. VIRTUALLY. as in FACEBOOK. yes. FACEBOOK has kept me un-'lonely' at home. i enjoy chatting with my friends online. they kinda entertain me. not only my closest friends, but some new friends i met, which i barely know. we never even met face to face, but we manage to get along very well. haha.. maybe that's just why i always hangout with them. i dont care if they say i'm the"group keeper" or something. i just enjoy myself there. THEY ROCK! haha

and guess what? they were all born in 1992! HOW COOL IS THAAAAT?! hahaha.. only them, yes them who make my day fun! ^^

can't wait to go back to kuching for raya!! 15 more days left.. KUCHING, HERE I COME!! :)

MAMA & PIZZA HUT

*1 300 88 2525*

pizza hut: hello ma'am phone number please..

mama: 086 310***

pizza hut: miss sabtuyah, am i correct?

mama: yes.

pizza hut: ok miss we'll get back to you shortly.

(on hold with ramadhan pizza hut promotion.. damdidamdidam...)

pizza hut: ok miss, may i take your order? ---> mistake#1 no "please"

mama: is the promotion for blablbla still on?

pizza hut: yes!!

mama: ok i would like to have blabbla pizza and....

pizza hut: CANNOT!! ---> mistake #2 raising her voice

mama: WHAT DO YOU MEAN?! WE LWAYS ORDER THAT!!

pizza hut: i havent finish talking.. you cut me (broken english) you have to pay extra if you want to order that.

mama: I KNOW THAT! NOW WHO'S THE CUSTOMER HERE??

pizza hut: sorry miss. anything else?

mama: tututut pizza and asasa chicken.

pizza hut: ok miss. that'lll be RMXX.xx. your pizza will be deliverd in 30 minutes.

mama: hmm. (hang up) berani she tinggi suara to me! babble babble babble.

- 65 minutes later (past iftar)-

*beep beep*

me: urgh! its about time!

MAMA AND PIZZA HUT would never get along.. haha.. trust me, its not the first time~ ^^

SOAPS, MOVIES, MALAYS & RISKS

dear malaysian producers,

i'm begging you to please oh please with a cherry on top to stop producing too many soaps. errr.. what i meant was soap operas.. sheesh.. ALL those soaps are just DEVLIN  (learnt from a blog  i read.. hehe), full of shit, crap and yang sewaktu dengannya.. oh come on la peeps.. each and every scene nak nangis? are you kidding me? and those actors and actresses, don't you feel ashame crying on national tv? dahla the soaps CONFIRM tunjuk the characters sakit tenat, and the almost dying face. then, yang lagi tak logik when A was informed by the hospital that B was admitted and A would cry an ocean padahal B was admitted because accident masuk longkang je kott.. =..=

not only those crappy crying scene in soaps, but also the so-called comedy drama - halimah jongang, fatimah juling etc. fyi, halimah and fatimah are both my aunts. neither of them are jongang or juling. not that i'm furious 'cause they use my aunts' name its just that  i thought comedy dramas are suppose to be FUNNY. unfortunately, i didnt laugh. =..=

AND the movies pulak, dah macam trend pulak. love story > horror. grrrr.. tarak idea mau bikin cerita lain ka kawan? aiyooo.. what? cicak man?? bullshit. konon buat movie CGI laa.. *yawn* OH, TERINGAT ONE STORY. my cousin went out with her friend one day. the friend got a cousin that lives in GERMANY. so the friend pun tunjuk la our "movies" to the GERMANS. you know what they say?

"oh, cool (wait for it) school project.."

BIG LOL! school project?? adoiiii~

errr.. talking nasty things about our local movies doesn't mean that i hate them.. i watched local movies too you know. just not a big fan.. international movies have their own cliches too like no matther what movie it is - horror, comedy, thriller, romance lagi laa - there's ALWAYS the kissing-make-out scene. they just like to cuddle with each other i guess. LOL.

based on my observation (and my cousin too) WE, MALAYSIAN or should i say MALAYS are just afraid to take risk. we like to see others taking the risk first, then if it succeds, we follow. if we continue on doing that, how can we be like JAPAN? are we gonna be the FOREVER-DEVELOPING COUNTRY? are we just gonna be a follower rather than to be followed?

IT IS ALL UP TO US, THE YOUTH OF THE NATION, TO DECIDE. cewahh!! ^^

-errkk. i though this was suppose to refer to malaysian producers? oh well. whatev~

P/S: i just don/t understand why my friends come to me for love advices. like i have ALL the experience WHICH i have 0 of em.. =..= i just love my friends i guess.. *wink*

awkward~

super awkward~ lantaklaa.. ada orang nak baca or tak.. like i care.. i just found a topic to share. cakap sorang2 macam sinetron indon tak salah kott~

my friend ni x pandai nak pronounce awkward. super cute! :)

i have lots of guy friends. no doubt. why? because i think they are much more easier to understand. ANNNND they are FUN and COOL~  = "  i still love you girlfriends!! ;)

eh.. eh.. having lotsa guy friends is not the awkward part.. the awkward part is when they start to act like weirdly towards you..

what do you mean by acting WEIRDLY?

well, when they start to take my jokes seriously..

what kinda jokes?

umm.. i don't know.. sometimes if we start talking bout marriage or dating or whatsoever, SOME of  'em will take it seriously. c'mon.. you know i like to fool around with words.. 'loyar buruk' or "nguras" as we call it is what i like to do mann~ ask my closest friends... they know how i am.. talking to random strangers which in the end will end up being my friends, is what i like.. I LOVE HAVING NEW FRIENDS! *wink*

i have this one weird - wait- AWKWARD experience.. i NEVER had a special boyfriend before.

why? are u a lesbo?

hell no!! i'm straight ok! its just that nobody ever confessed to me yet not that i care of cause maybe i'm not attractive enough to them.. lol.. my time will come.. *wink*

UNTIL one day.. hoho.. seriously, its an AWKWARD situation.. we just met.. he happens to be a friend of a friend of my cousin, whereby the friend of my cousin happens to be my friend too.. pening? haha.. lets put it this way.. A = the guy, B = my cousin's friend, C = my cousin.. SO, A is a friend of B, where B is a friend of C.. THEREFORE, A and B are my new friends.. get it?? still confused? urgh~ forget bout it..

so then bla bla bla... talk talk.. laugh laugh.. jokes.. yada yada.. we strolled at the beach tengok sunset.. there are 7 of us btw.. at the beach, we wrote our names on the sand.. lol. poyo gila.. =.=

cut to tthe chase, A dragged a loooooong arrow from his name to mine.. so everybody was like.. O_0

B : oooh~ seems like a silent confession.. haha
me: LOL!
D (another friend) : why dont you just say it out loud. alaa.. i'm sure u like honest guy rite fatin??
me: huh?? of course laa.. but this is awkward~~
A: (after kena paksa by his friends) fine~ first time when i saw u both, u're cute.. and u look like sh amani (pointing at me) i like u..
me: oookaaaayyyy.. this is tooootally awkward~ but thanks.. :)

then blablabla.. jadi bahan.. we left..
 
seriously, how awkward is THAT?? i think it is.. cause i just knew him for like what, 2 hours?? how can he tell me he likes me?? that's why i dont really believe in LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT. YET.

but i admire his courage to tell me that he likes me.  that is sooo sweet of him.. awww..  i didnt hate him for that.. i still treat him as a friend though.. oh ya, after the incident, B told me that A keep asking bout me.. xtaula he was just fooling with me kann.. whatever laa.. its not that i dont like him but he's younger than me. USTAZ REDZUAN told me to find at least someone that is at least 5 years OLDER.. hahak! HE said guys like younger girls.. yeke?? i just wanna be friends. tapi kalau dh jodoh nak buat macam mana kan :)

luckily most of my guy friends dah ada yang punya. so far, xde plak mslh with their awekss.. kawan je.. those yang xde awekss, i dont think they have feelings for me.. duh~  nanti rasa cam sumbang mahram plak sebab i dah rasa they all macam abang.. :)

dah tu, if you treat they all macam your brothers, how in hell are you gonna have a boyfriend, get married and have 4 kids?

errrkkk. tu belakang cerita laa! my time will come. :)
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do i really look like sh amani or sh aleya?? hmm.. awkward~

how i wish i could marry you.. *sigh*

update lagi.. ^^

i never knew fasting at home could be this lonely. :(

ceritera bukak puasa

alhadulillah~ kenyang i bukak puasa. mi goreng + old town milk tea = cukup ah..

sambil bukak posa, mama and i tengok tv. MAMA & ME. ONLY. cerita melayu. urgh! typical malay drama. nangis-nangis, sedih-sedih, sakit-sakit. DIE. i know, tv akan main cerita-cerita like this SEPANJANG BULAN NI. grrrr..

BULETIN UTAMA pukul 8, keluar pulak cerita orang susah yang perlukan bantuan right here in BINTULU.. huh?? tak pernah tau punnnn..

kat fesbuk people keep updating bout their first day of puasa...

"awww... tahun ni puasa kat tmpat org.. isk3.."

"rindulah nak puasa ngan mama, papa, adik, along, angah, achik, wan, opah bagai... :( "

"yeyeyeeyeye!! puasa kt rumah!!"

as for me?? i know that berpuasa with family best gila, seronok sampai nak melompat-lompat sampai langit ke-16.. eksejeret cerita.. well, i'm not saying that I DON'T LIKE berpuasa kat rumah, its just that I PREFER puasa with my friends.. puasa kat rumha sunyi doe.. :(

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dulu-dulu, bulan puasa falls on school holiday.. so last time, school holiday je, i'll go back to KUCHING.. fun jugak laa.. NEK NI  masak feveret food bagai.. YOK will always ask: "what do you want for sahur?" puasa with cousins.. main mercun, bunga api bagai.. pergh! bab bangun sahur toksah cerita laa.. payah bebenau! kesian YOK..

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FORM 1 til FORM 5, i puasa kat sekolah.. sekolah boarding kaaaaaann.. environment puasa mmg totally different laa.. different in a good way.. ME LIKE! bukak puasa ramai-ramai kat DEWAN SELERA (DS) with seniors and juniors.. then ramai-ramai gi surau solat jemaah sama-sama.. time bukak puasa paling best is during FORM 5.. senior la konon.. hikhik.. tahun-tahun before, masalah tak cukup tempat time bukak puasa amat serious sekali.. samapi we have to tapau the food and bukak kat hostel.. :(

so, time form 5 tu, there's an extra tent pasang kat DS.. dari first day puasa, until the last day, me and gang already book the place.. wahhh! konon dah sign contract bagai laa.. LOLS.. tapi there were times yang ktorg lmbat reserve and orang lain dah ambik port tu.. WHATEVER.. ktorg senior cool. xde nye nak gaduh-gaduh sume pasal tmpat duduk kt DS.. tak macam senior tahun before.. ooops! cerita lama wehhh... *zip*

basically, everyday la ktorang bukak kt situ.. juniors pun dah tau sangat dah kakakss and abangss yang sit at that table.. so one day, dekat nak ujung-ujung puasa tak silap, ktorang 'perang' ngan geng besar batch ktorang laa... that time bongok lagii.. bnde kecik pun nak gaduh.. sengal bebenau... actually kes salah faham doe.. adala 2 of my galss yang sedang borak-borak sambil tengok-tengok and gelak-gelak.. ke arah gang besar batch ktorang tu.. actually they were not - repeat - WERE NOT staring at them.. we galss like to LOLSS.. tapi serious masa to mmg bukan gelak kat diorg.. tapi akibat salah faham, that night after terawih.. some of THE BOYS mengamuk kat kelas time prep...

 he went to every class searching for us.. that night, i lepak with ROZA at her class (kelas B)..  we could hear the chaos yang sedang happen kat kelas F.. F> E>D>C and B......

BOY: (shouting at me) ap yang ko x puas ati kat aku huh???!!
ME: (was sitting dekat pintu, which is close to him) KO PAHAL??!!
 BOY: (tendang pintu then left)
ME: wadefuuuukkkk???!

homaigodd.. mau tak cuak gua kena tengking budak laki.. nasib baik i have a loud voice.. hehe.. a ource from that class said, the scene happened that night was superrrrr funny cause my voice was superrrrrrr louder rrrr than the BOY'S voice.. LOLSSS!!

actually kannn, ktorang mmg pernah akit hati pun kat diorg tu.. tapi satu hari tu je la kottt.. after that ktorang bwt besa je... mekdono jee.. it was the day that diorg g baling mercun time orang tengah bukak puasa.. baling kat meja org plak tuh... orang nak bukak puasa dengan aman doe~

haiyaaaa.. small matter je kott.. itu pun mau gaduh kaaa??  dasar budak xtau pape.. zaman jahiliyah orang cakap..

but then, moment like that laa that i missed sooo damn fucking much.. where got gaduh-gaduh tengking-tengking time bukak puasa kat rumah kannnn~~?? oh yaaaaa... time bukak puasa kat sekolah, time tu lah ktorang borak-borak, share-share food, LOL-ingss... hmmmm.. how i missed that moment... :'(

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tak bukak lagi cerita bukak puasa kat matrik last year.. hahaha.. pun bestttt.. time bukak puasa, jangan harap laa nak tengok kafe bukak.. bazaar ramadhan la jawab ny.. kat bazaar tu, best woo usha mamat-mamat alim, siap berkopiah kain plekat bagai keluar dari surau.. tak pun, duk bertenggek kat tngga surau.. kejadah... hehe.. then, plastik kat tangan bukan nak satu je, mau smpai 5-6 gak ah.. paling best, air tebu hari-hari beb~ pergh!! peberet doe~

kat my college, there's this peraturan that forbid guys to be at girls' cafe after 6 and vice versa.. but then, the bazaar is very the dekat with girls' cafe.. so diorg amik senang, port je laa kt our cafe.. yang brbuka ngan awekss lain plak ceritaa.. everyday, MR MEGAT confirm ronda-ronda.. hari-hari ktorg tgk guys kena tengking laa, tarik telinga laa.. hahaha..

paling besttt, ktorg bukak puasa dalam gelap with no kipas.. mengong kann?? we just dunno why diorang tanak bukak.. still a mystery until now.. hmmm..

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today, first day bukak puasa kat rumah.. MAMA & ME ONLY. sunyi gilaaa.. tapi agak lama dah x bukak with mama.. :)


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asal masuk bulan puasa je, i'll miss me galss.. :(