#GirlsAndTheirImaginationThatWouldNeverProbablyComeTrueEspeciallyAGirlLikeMe

assalam & whaddup!

this is a random post.
i was just finish watching GOSSIP GIRL, watching penn badgely in action.
HE IS DAMN HOT!
what i wanna say is that I WANT A BOYFRIEND JUST LIKE DAN HUMHPREYS!
he's smart, sarcastic in a good way,
 has sense of humor, HOT, a family guy, loves his sister (and the girlfriend),
protective,
 look very innocent but actually a bad guy deep inside.
even though he's not from a wealthy family, but he's everything that a girl ever wanted! at least i do. :)
oh2! most important, HE SPEAKS FLUENT ENGLISH! duh~

please oh please my future boyfriend/husband be like DAN HUMPHREY!
not that i'm being picky but someone like him would be nice.
if that's possible.
#GirlsAndTheirImaginationThatWouldNeverProbablyComeTrueEspeciallyAGirlLikeMe

ok random bye!

p/s: what you did to Serena in episode 35 season 2 is UNACCEPTABLE! c'mon, RACHEL CARR???? she's a bitch. and future BOYFRIEND/HUSBAND, please dont do that.

OKB MARI!!

sitting in the lecture hall,

waiting for mr hardyman.

he had tummy ache, so he came late to class.

he said he drank yougrt drink last nite.

wait, this is not about him. =,,=

so where was i?

oh yaa.. concentrating on the topic for the day.

STRUCT. a command to define new data type.

a passing note distract me.

urgh! now i have to pass it to the back.

eh? wait, 

TO DAYANG,

HARI NI ADA PERJUMPAAN UNTUK

JPA KAT KUCHING (MEDIK PUNYE 

CAMPUS) START KUL 10.

FOR ME??

HUH??

HOW COME I DONT KNOW THIS???

while i was typing this, there's a weird smell coming from my roommate's side. probably her friend.

anywhoooo,

i looked at the time, it was 9.05.

shit.

so i rushed out and walk very extra super ultra fast to bhep.

thank GOD x kena tinggal bas.

PHEW!

but yeah..

i was the "LATE ONE"

so no seat for me in the bus.

and so i have to share.

MY ASS HURT SO BAD. =,,=

i thought that i would be alone.

but nora was there, faiha was also there. :)

and of course my doc-to-be friends since they all layak terima JPA kaann.. hoho

nas, danny, nana, james bong, soo chok kim, sabrina, toh kee liong, almond chin, sera kadir.

wahh!! rami duhal kwn lokto saya.. XDD

so the taklimat was about, what we have to do, what we shouldn't do during the sponsorship.

no course xtension

"surat cinta" for below 3.0 (yesssss.. 3.0)

email every result to them

no KAWEN

NO PART TIME

ETC...

did i mention i bawak payung?? PAYUNG.. my big ass payung..

macam la bejalan dari samarahan ke kuching tek nak??

LOL.

then i met MUNI, LIYA, AMIEREENA & NELLIE.

SERONOK!!

ok..

then we all go back..

lunch sorang2.. sobss #foreveralone.

then petang dinner with alin.

we actually stayed there for 2 hours.... watching AKU TAK BODOH.

cool movie.

enough yapping!

got a project report to write!

adios muchachos!! 

:)

p/s: did i mention i'm gonna be an OKB?? ORANG KAYA MARI~~ XDDD

BITCH UP FATIN!!

right now, i just need a shoulder to cry on.

ANY shoulder.

i know i should stop being nice once in a while. say NO for a start should do it.

i'm just tired of doing EVERYTHING on my own. fuck those people! screw em!

this is the THIRD time in a row. THREE. TIGA. SAN. TRES.

this is what happen if you were assign to a random group by the lecturer.

yessss. true that you could meet new people, and experience working with different people.

but if THOSE people are not capable doing ANYTHING, i rather die. YESSS.. DIE!

STRIKE #1

3 experiments. each experiment, answer 3 questions. doing the experiment is easy. the FUCKING PART is answering the questions.. duh~

researches need to be done, reading, sorting all those stuff.

guess what?? i did it all by myself.

note that this is A GROUP ASSIGNMENT.

not that i didn't ask for their help.. i informed them. TWICE.

any RESPONSE?? NO. NUL. NADA.

fine. i wasted my one week hols just to finsih it. actually, i gained a lot. no time wasted. MY BAD.

the only response i get is when i told them everything's done.

mesti la suk naaaakkk.. keja dah siap bahhh.. =,,=

STRIKE #2

2 case studies. each case study = 3 pages.

this time, i asked them to help me find ANYTHING related to the case study.

oh.. they gave me alrite.

they gave me the WHOLE article. expecting me to READ it on my own, SORT it out on my own. and WRITE THE REPORT. wowww..

u guys sure made my work EASIER. NOT.

so yeah. i did it all by myself. IN ONE DAY. drafting AND writng the report.

awesome huh? hahah!

STRIKE #3

chapter presentation.

lets do a lil bit of deductive reasoning since that's the topic of the presentation:

HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND THE CHAPTER.

THE CHAPTER IS IN ENGLISH.

THEREFORE, HE DOES NOT UNDERSTAND ENGLISH.

being a nice person, i actually volunteered to help. how?

by PREPARING the slides, AND the presentation text.

GOSH~ what did i get myself into. *sigh*

if you think by doing the cover page is helping, well it's NOT.

redoing the experiments cos we didnt get the lowest result? NOPE.

giving me crap for me to put inside the report. NO!

why can't i just say NO and live my life?

why must i agree to everything??

why can't i just tell it right to their face??

why are being so nice when you know it'll hurt you??

WHY FATIN WHY???

WHY????

AM I BEING TOO NICE??

AM I EVEN A GOOD PERSON??

C'MON FATIN! BITCH UP!!

now i know~~

now i know, who i can work with and who i cannot.
my midsem break is almost PERFECTO. minus the part where i have to finish THE WHOLE GROUP PROJECT ON MY OWN.. THANKS A LOT PEEPS~

THANKS. A. LOT.
=,,=

oh well..
one must not whine.
just look at the bright side: you'll learn from what you've done!
you know what to do and they don't.
i know i gain something. did you?

XOXO

imma cry~

i cry when i'm REALLY confuse,
i cry when i'm REALLY anxious,
i cry when i'm REALLY pissed.

i almost cried
cos i was REALLY confuse.

RIGHT NOW,
i feel like crying
for i'm SUPER FUCKINGLY nervous.

O ALMIGHTY ALLAH,
please help me get through all this.
AMIN.

*gulp*

01-11-11

hello whaddup peeps~
assalam..

long time no write bloggy... been so busy maa.. being a uni student.. *hands on shoulder, mata ke atas*
 but u have time for twitter meh? errr... damdidamdidam..

it's just that whenever i click *write new post* all i see is a blank page. no ideas. maybe they jumped into UNIMAS LAKE. LOL

so like as usual, i turned LAPPY on, plugged BERUK in and tweet. i looked at the twitter trending column ( whatever they called it) and then it hits me. REASONS YOU ARE SINGLE.

i don't know if it is normal or not, but at this age, well maybe some say it is still too early, but my ICT lecturer in MATRIX once said, "girls, when you enter university, during your first year of study, YOU MUST start looking for a boyfriend/future husband." oookaaaayyy~ like it is sooooo important.. pffftt.. =,,="

well, it IS kinda suck watching people sitting with the boyfriend, talked bout their boyfriends, boyfriend this boyfriend that. WHY DON'T I HAVE ONE??

i'm not picky. well yes of course us girls like to woe guys like TAYLOR LAUTNER, but guys like him OBVIOUSLY are just illusions. duhhh~
it's just that people never really ask me the question.
when i say question i mean, "WOULD YOU BE MY GIRLFRIEND?" 
LOL
maybe they did. it's just that i don't really get it.
so please be straight forward to me, kay?

yes. people did confess that they have feelings for me. but i always question myself.
is his feeling real? or is he just fooling around to see whether i'm an easy-to-get girl or not?

how can you say you like me when we just know each other?
maybe i should stop asking questions. =,,='

even if my own friend said that they like me, i still ask the questions. and of course i'll keep it to myself.
cos i know it is gonna be sooo awkward like moving one step away from being friends.
but we know each other well. can't we just ..... ?
it's not i don't like you cos if it's true, i won't be your friends laaa doii..
in that case, you have to convince me real good ok?

oh well.. maybe IT IS too early for me. don't worry fatin. your time'll come soon. SOOOOON. just let time decides.. cewahhh! OR MAYBE this game will help. :)

why my post suddenly macam  luahan hati oo? haha.. who cares.. macam desperate pun ada jwak aku tekk.. LOL

OK! done yapping. gotta study for linguistic tomorrow! adios muchachos!!

P/S: it's 01-11-11, what should i do to remember this date? hmmm...

mm-hmm~

you know when sometimes you feel like crying but you don't exactly know WHY?
you will find a way or something that'll trigger your tears to fall.
you'll be fine afterwards.

say my name, say my name~

There was a girl who was born two years after the complication of her sister's birth. Knowing that it was the second caesarian labour for the mother, after her first child who didn't manage to survive, she knew that the most number of children she'll get would only be two. So the couple decided to give a long name to their two children; the newborn and the one after who was born 2 years later. The newborn girl was named “Dayang Nurfatin Farzana” and this “girl” is me.

I asked my mom, “why was I named as such, out of all the names in the world?” Well there's of course a reason to everything. “Dayang” is actually a title name I get from my father's side. It is said that my ancestors comes from the Brunei royal family which have “Awang” and “Dayang” as titles. So I am somehow and somewhat related to the Brunei Royal Family.

As far as I know, most Malay Muslim's names are derived from Arabic words that had been modernised. The names portray certain particular meanings. My name, “Nurfatin” was actually a combination of “Nur” which means “light” and “Fatin” which means “petite” or “small”. So “Nurfatin” actually means “the light of a captivating petite girl”. My mom told me that I was born very small and cute. That's why they called me ”Fatin”.

Based on my research, “Farzana” comes from an African word which means “wise” or “intelligent”. My dad wants his children to be intelligent as they grow, so he finds a name that could reflect the meaning. He found “farzana” for me and “ariffin” for my brother which carries almost the same meaning. Putting all my names together; “Dayang Nurfatin Farzana” means “the light of a petite, captivating and wise girl”.

Credits to Google, I found ways to write and pronounce my name in three different languages.

ENGLISH	CHINESE	ARABIC	JAPANESE
DAYANG	达杨 = da yang	دايانغ = dayangh	デイアング = deiangu
NURFATIN	奴法廷 = nu fa ting	نورفاتن = nwrfatn	ナーファッティン = nafattin
FARZANA	法扎纳 = fa zha na	فرزانة = farzanah	ファーザナー = fazana

Long names or short, never really matters. The real question is, what's behind your name? I found mine. What's yours? ^^

awkward~

super awkward~ lantaklaa.. ada orang nak baca or tak.. like i care.. i just found a topic to share. cakap sorang2 macam sinetron indon tak salah kott~

my friend ni x pandai nak pronounce awkward. super cute! :)

i have lots of guy friends. no doubt. why? because i think they are much more easier to understand. ANNNND they are FUN and COOL~  = "  i still love you girlfriends!! ;)

eh.. eh.. having lotsa guy friends is not the awkward part.. the awkward part is when they start to act like weirdly towards you..

what do you mean by acting WEIRDLY?

well, when they start to take my jokes seriously..

what kinda jokes?

umm.. i don't know.. sometimes if we start talking bout marriage or dating or whatsoever, SOME of  'em will take it seriously. c'mon.. you know i like to fool around with words.. 'loyar buruk' or "nguras" as we call it is what i like to do mann~ ask my closest friends... they know how i am.. talking to random strangers which in the end will end up being my friends, is what i like.. I LOVE HAVING NEW FRIENDS! *wink*

i have this one weird - wait- AWKWARD experience.. i NEVER had a special boyfriend before.

why? are u a lesbo?

hell no!! i'm straight ok! its just that nobody ever confessed to me yet not that i care of cause maybe i'm not attractive enough to them.. lol.. my time will come.. *wink*

UNTIL one day.. hoho.. seriously, its an AWKWARD situation.. we just met.. he happens to be a friend of a friend of my cousin, whereby the friend of my cousin happens to be my friend too.. pening? haha.. lets put it this way.. A = the guy, B = my cousin's friend, C = my cousin.. SO, A is a friend of B, where B is a friend of C.. THEREFORE, A and B are my new friends.. get it?? still confused? urgh~ forget bout it..

so then bla bla bla... talk talk.. laugh laugh.. jokes.. yada yada.. we strolled at the beach tengok sunset.. there are 7 of us btw.. at the beach, we wrote our names on the sand.. lol. poyo gila.. =.=

cut to tthe chase, A dragged a loooooong arrow from his name to mine.. so everybody was like.. O_0

B : oooh~ seems like a silent confession.. haha
me: LOL!
D (another friend) : why dont you just say it out loud. alaa.. i'm sure u like honest guy rite fatin??
me: huh?? of course laa.. but this is awkward~~
A: (after kena paksa by his friends) fine~ first time when i saw u both, u're cute.. and u look like sh amani (pointing at me) i like u..
me: oookaaaayyyy.. this is tooootally awkward~ but thanks.. :)

then blablabla.. jadi bahan.. we left..
 
seriously, how awkward is THAT?? i think it is.. cause i just knew him for like what, 2 hours?? how can he tell me he likes me?? that's why i dont really believe in LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT. YET.

but i admire his courage to tell me that he likes me.  that is sooo sweet of him.. awww..  i didnt hate him for that.. i still treat him as a friend though.. oh ya, after the incident, B told me that A keep asking bout me.. xtaula he was just fooling with me kann.. whatever laa.. its not that i dont like him but he's younger than me. USTAZ REDZUAN told me to find at least someone that is at least 5 years OLDER.. hahak! HE said guys like younger girls.. yeke?? i just wanna be friends. tapi kalau dh jodoh nak buat macam mana kan :)

luckily most of my guy friends dah ada yang punya. so far, xde plak mslh with their awekss.. kawan je.. those yang xde awekss, i dont think they have feelings for me.. duh~  nanti rasa cam sumbang mahram plak sebab i dah rasa they all macam abang.. :)

dah tu, if you treat they all macam your brothers, how in hell are you gonna have a boyfriend, get married and have 4 kids?

errrkkk. tu belakang cerita laa! my time will come. :)
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do i really look like sh amani or sh aleya?? hmm.. awkward~

how i wish i could marry you.. *sigh*

ceritera bukak puasa

alhadulillah~ kenyang i bukak puasa. mi goreng + old town milk tea = cukup ah..

sambil bukak posa, mama and i tengok tv. MAMA & ME. ONLY. cerita melayu. urgh! typical malay drama. nangis-nangis, sedih-sedih, sakit-sakit. DIE. i know, tv akan main cerita-cerita like this SEPANJANG BULAN NI. grrrr..

BULETIN UTAMA pukul 8, keluar pulak cerita orang susah yang perlukan bantuan right here in BINTULU.. huh?? tak pernah tau punnnn..

kat fesbuk people keep updating bout their first day of puasa...

"awww... tahun ni puasa kat tmpat org.. isk3.."

"rindulah nak puasa ngan mama, papa, adik, along, angah, achik, wan, opah bagai... :( "

"yeyeyeeyeye!! puasa kt rumah!!"

as for me?? i know that berpuasa with family best gila, seronok sampai nak melompat-lompat sampai langit ke-16.. eksejeret cerita.. well, i'm not saying that I DON'T LIKE berpuasa kat rumah, its just that I PREFER puasa with my friends.. puasa kat rumha sunyi doe.. :(

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dulu-dulu, bulan puasa falls on school holiday.. so last time, school holiday je, i'll go back to KUCHING.. fun jugak laa.. NEK NI  masak feveret food bagai.. YOK will always ask: "what do you want for sahur?" puasa with cousins.. main mercun, bunga api bagai.. pergh! bab bangun sahur toksah cerita laa.. payah bebenau! kesian YOK..

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FORM 1 til FORM 5, i puasa kat sekolah.. sekolah boarding kaaaaaann.. environment puasa mmg totally different laa.. different in a good way.. ME LIKE! bukak puasa ramai-ramai kat DEWAN SELERA (DS) with seniors and juniors.. then ramai-ramai gi surau solat jemaah sama-sama.. time bukak puasa paling best is during FORM 5.. senior la konon.. hikhik.. tahun-tahun before, masalah tak cukup tempat time bukak puasa amat serious sekali.. samapi we have to tapau the food and bukak kat hostel.. :(

so, time form 5 tu, there's an extra tent pasang kat DS.. dari first day puasa, until the last day, me and gang already book the place.. wahhh! konon dah sign contract bagai laa.. LOLS.. tapi there were times yang ktorg lmbat reserve and orang lain dah ambik port tu.. WHATEVER.. ktorg senior cool. xde nye nak gaduh-gaduh sume pasal tmpat duduk kt DS.. tak macam senior tahun before.. ooops! cerita lama wehhh... *zip*

basically, everyday la ktorang bukak kt situ.. juniors pun dah tau sangat dah kakakss and abangss yang sit at that table.. so one day, dekat nak ujung-ujung puasa tak silap, ktorang 'perang' ngan geng besar batch ktorang laa... that time bongok lagii.. bnde kecik pun nak gaduh.. sengal bebenau... actually kes salah faham doe.. adala 2 of my galss yang sedang borak-borak sambil tengok-tengok and gelak-gelak.. ke arah gang besar batch ktorang tu.. actually they were not - repeat - WERE NOT staring at them.. we galss like to LOLSS.. tapi serious masa to mmg bukan gelak kat diorg.. tapi akibat salah faham, that night after terawih.. some of THE BOYS mengamuk kat kelas time prep...

 he went to every class searching for us.. that night, i lepak with ROZA at her class (kelas B)..  we could hear the chaos yang sedang happen kat kelas F.. F> E>D>C and B......

BOY: (shouting at me) ap yang ko x puas ati kat aku huh???!!
ME: (was sitting dekat pintu, which is close to him) KO PAHAL??!!
 BOY: (tendang pintu then left)
ME: wadefuuuukkkk???!

homaigodd.. mau tak cuak gua kena tengking budak laki.. nasib baik i have a loud voice.. hehe.. a ource from that class said, the scene happened that night was superrrrr funny cause my voice was superrrrrrr louder rrrr than the BOY'S voice.. LOLSSS!!

actually kannn, ktorang mmg pernah akit hati pun kat diorg tu.. tapi satu hari tu je la kottt.. after that ktorang bwt besa je... mekdono jee.. it was the day that diorg g baling mercun time orang tengah bukak puasa.. baling kat meja org plak tuh... orang nak bukak puasa dengan aman doe~

haiyaaaa.. small matter je kott.. itu pun mau gaduh kaaa??  dasar budak xtau pape.. zaman jahiliyah orang cakap..

but then, moment like that laa that i missed sooo damn fucking much.. where got gaduh-gaduh tengking-tengking time bukak puasa kat rumah kannnn~~?? oh yaaaaa... time bukak puasa kat sekolah, time tu lah ktorang borak-borak, share-share food, LOL-ingss... hmmmm.. how i missed that moment... :'(

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tak bukak lagi cerita bukak puasa kat matrik last year.. hahaha.. pun bestttt.. time bukak puasa, jangan harap laa nak tengok kafe bukak.. bazaar ramadhan la jawab ny.. kat bazaar tu, best woo usha mamat-mamat alim, siap berkopiah kain plekat bagai keluar dari surau.. tak pun, duk bertenggek kat tngga surau.. kejadah... hehe.. then, plastik kat tangan bukan nak satu je, mau smpai 5-6 gak ah.. paling best, air tebu hari-hari beb~ pergh!! peberet doe~

kat my college, there's this peraturan that forbid guys to be at girls' cafe after 6 and vice versa.. but then, the bazaar is very the dekat with girls' cafe.. so diorg amik senang, port je laa kt our cafe.. yang brbuka ngan awekss lain plak ceritaa.. everyday, MR MEGAT confirm ronda-ronda.. hari-hari ktorg tgk guys kena tengking laa, tarik telinga laa.. hahaha..

paling besttt, ktorg bukak puasa dalam gelap with no kipas.. mengong kann?? we just dunno why diorang tanak bukak.. still a mystery until now.. hmmm..

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today, first day bukak puasa kat rumah.. MAMA & ME ONLY. sunyi gilaaa.. tapi agak lama dah x bukak with mama.. :)


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asal masuk bulan puasa je, i'll miss me galss.. :(

where EXACTLY IS my hometown??

hometown noun - a place where you were born OR lived as a child.
(oxford advanced learner's dictionary, 6th edition)

if people ask me: where are you from? or where's your hometown?

what shoud be my answer?? i always got confused..

my dad is from BINTULU, SARAWAK.

my mum is from KUCHING SARAWAK.

 i was BORN in KUCHING SARAWAK but the i've been living in BINTULU SARAWAK when i was a child.

where actually is my hometown??

P/S: usually when people ask me, i'll just answer im from KUCHING.. hehe.. ^^

SMILE ( :

waiting in the car with kak hannah at a petrol station. so then came a car that park beside ours. a late-40 guy who was the driver came out of the car and look at me directly. i just can't help myself but to SMILE  at him. i gave him a friendly SMILE. he SMILED back with a SMILE that i described as wanna-do-something-bad-to-me SMILE. LOL!

sorry uncle if i misintepret your SMILE! but it was DAMN CREEPY!! =_=