I THOUGHT WE'RE FAMILY?

assalaaaaaaaaaaamualaikum!

saya tok tek baruk jak balit dari pengilan makan hol nek idi ka nama nya tek oo.....?
nisik la saya tok ingat.. nya bala belah dak bapak saya bah..
jadi saya kurang mengetahui lah..
 pagi tadik ayah suruh padah ngan mama,
malam tok tek gi rumah uncle G ada makan hol lekak isya'.

so pegi lah tekkk..
ingat kmk urg tek sampe aherrr.
tapi cam sampe2 tek urang baruk maca doa..
fuhhh selamat..

masok la ke dalam where urang rempuan selalu duduk nak..
pum pam pum pam abis macam doa, cam besalah makan..
alu nek udak padah:

"bah, makanlah gik nun. nyaman ke rumah sigek gik."
"rumah ne gik?" mama said.
"ah, xdalah. makan makan.

okaaaayy..  something's fishy.

walopun kenyang kak makan sugarbun tek, tapi saya ngan mama tek makan jwak.
hormat bah ngan urang dah nyeruk tek nakkk..
tengah2 makan nyaman tek, one by one urang balit..
aik? awal na jwak?

me and mama tek nang muka eran blur abis lah..
datanglah mak cik sorang tok tek nanyak, "sik gi rumah mak ot ko?"
mak(nek) ot tok kira cam sorang gik la bala belah dak ayah.

mama: ah? rumah mak ot tek ad jwakk?
mak cik: aokk.. nak gi sinun lah tok.. kau sik?
mama: kaktoklah ke sinun..

di sini saya merasa amat pelik.
camne 2 related people, having the same pengilan? on the same night?
how could they leave rumah nek udak cmya jak?
imagine lah sik sampe 10 mins rumah ya terus puang..
urang semua ke rumah nun..
cam kesian lah saya ngan nek udak tek..

so i told my pelikness to mama..
mama just padah, mama rasa ada confrontation..
ada la nisik betul tek..
mama padah that nek idi ninggal last year di rumah nek udak.
tapi cam family belah nek ot tek rasa cm ny adik beradik tek so nya harus polah jwak.
camya la conclusion mama.

but still, how?? cam peluuu kah?
i mean, family bah?
dari rumah ya sampe balit pengilan saya tek pnde itok..
bila lau rumah nek ot tek yang xla jaoh dari siaa, nang rami jak keretaa..

this is one thing that i dont understand bout my family belah my dad.

peace out y'all!

imma cry~

i cry when i'm REALLY confuse,
i cry when i'm REALLY anxious,
i cry when i'm REALLY pissed.

i almost cried
cos i was REALLY confuse.

RIGHT NOW,
i feel like crying
for i'm SUPER FUCKINGLY nervous.

O ALMIGHTY ALLAH,
please help me get through all this.
AMIN.

*gulp*

where EXACTLY IS my hometown??

hometown noun - a place where you were born OR lived as a child.
(oxford advanced learner's dictionary, 6th edition)

if people ask me: where are you from? or where's your hometown?

what shoud be my answer?? i always got confused..

my dad is from BINTULU, SARAWAK.

my mum is from KUCHING SARAWAK.

 i was BORN in KUCHING SARAWAK but the i've been living in BINTULU SARAWAK when i was a child.

where actually is my hometown??

P/S: usually when people ask me, i'll just answer im from KUCHING.. hehe.. ^^