UNFAIR

You know how we girls

would have that awful feeling

sometimes about yourself

and most of the time you'll feel like

everything in the world is so annoying

but in actual fact you're the annoying one.

Like it would happen during that time of the month.

You know.

You get angry easily.

You get annoyed easily.

You'll snapped to almost everything

even the littlest thing.

I know that even if it's not THAT time of the month

some people are kinda afraid of me

like sometimes I would just snap

and I'm well aware that 

when there're things that are not pleasant to me

I mean if it's something that I don't like

it would be shown clearly on my face.

You'll see my face cringing

and I know I cant hide it.

I'm an open book.

I promise you that you'll know when I'm mad.

but you won't know when I'm sad (meheh)

I just feel like sometimes it's not fair

to blame it on the hormones

but then again

that's how our body works.

I'm thankful that God made us like how we are now.

I mean

imagine if guys have PMS

that would be very bad don't you think?

Like we girls are known to be soft and yet when PMS hit us

we'll EXPLODE!

I know you guys think that it's so unfair

that we always blame it on PMS

but life's unfair, right?

Again would like to apologise to people

who I kinda snapped at these few days

and all those moody emotional tweets.

I'm okay now.

You can interact with me like normal.

U-G-L-Y YOU AINT GOT NO ALIBI

If you know me since before 2013,
you know that i used to have this huge mole on my upper lip
right in the center.
it's ugly and I know it.
Don't you there tell me I'm pretty.

And if you know me well,
you'll know that that was my biggest insecurity.
Like I HATED that mole.
Why?
because it affected my whole life!
I was scarred.
I mean
people made fun of me,
people would stare at me like I'm some kind of alien from outer space
they call me names.
I was practically bullied.
Mentally and emotionally.
I think.

Removing it for good was the best decision of my life.
I still remember the doctor asking me "Are you sure?" for I dont know how many times.
and I keep telling him, "YES! I'm 100% sure of this"
"It might not turn out as you wanted it to be" he said.
I said, "I put my trust in you Doc." almost singing. (you know, Linkin Park - In The End)

I'm glad that my family understands.
They paid for the surgery and it's not cheap for a very minor one.
Thank you, Ma.

It's normal that people like pretty things
and will quickly judge the ugly.
I'm no exception.
It's the law of nature.

I don't know where this post is going.
I just remembered how hurtful it was back then.
I'm not sure if i'm less ugly now
but I certainly know that my worst insecurity is now gone.

NOBODY WANTS TO KNOW

Yes people see me as that
Happy-go-lucky
Care-free
Laid-back
Kinda girl.

Truth is,
I worry a lot
I do care about everything
I always think too much of something
I take those little things very seriously at times

But i chose not to show it
Because it's a waste of people's time
Nobody wants to know that.

Hurting in the inside.
I dont mind that.
As long as it doesnt get in people's way.
We're good.