my one and only brother

i was having breakfast with my housemate this morning. "ding dong" goes my text alert. its from mama. she forwarded a text form my brother who is currently preparing for his SPM exam. and they held a MAJLIS RESTU  last week which my parents couldnt attend under certain reasons. so it goes:

in the hall filled with parents, i was given support by total strangers. it felt really good but then as i exit the hall, my heart broke, tears started rolling down my face, seeing all the students with their parents. i couldnt help but to feel sad and lonely, just sitting in front of the hall, waiting for something that will never be, hoping that somehow my parents would just walk out of the hall and give me a hug, the ugly truth showed up when the hall became completely empty, my tears burst longing for my parents love, i was crying alone....

this is my reply to him:

dear my one and only brother,
what kinda LOVE from mama and ayah are you longing for? they gave us all the love they have and probably the love which is not even theirs to us. its not their fault that they couldnt come to your majlis restu. mama is working extra hours just so we could live a happy and comfy life. i know you were just feeling lonely and maybe a little bit of jealous seeing all your friends' parents coming for the majlis restu. been there done that. just so you know, we all support you from afar. i know and i believe that you could do your very best in your upcoming exam. in my experience, its kinda too late to do your revision. what's important at this crucial time is to seek for ALLAH's help of course and not to forget blessings from mama and ayah and just pray for the best. trust me, if your niat is good, everything'll turn out great. you'll excel with flying colours. fyi, mama was really touched reading your text and ayah wanted to drive to betong to see you. i wish i could tell you this in person, but i know how you would react and that'll stress you out. so i decided to keep it to myself and post it in my blog. maybe someday when you know about my blog, you'll read it. you know I LOVE YOU even though I NEVER show it to you. believe it or not. your my one and only sibling and without you, i might be lonely. just so you know, my tears are rolling down my face as i typed this. :')


LOVE,
kakak. <3