#GirlsAndTheirImaginationThatWouldNeverProbablyComeTrueEspeciallyAGirlLikeMe

assalam & whaddup!

this is a random post.
i was just finish watching GOSSIP GIRL, watching penn badgely in action.
HE IS DAMN HOT!
what i wanna say is that I WANT A BOYFRIEND JUST LIKE DAN HUMHPREYS!
he's smart, sarcastic in a good way,
 has sense of humor, HOT, a family guy, loves his sister (and the girlfriend),
protective,
 look very innocent but actually a bad guy deep inside.
even though he's not from a wealthy family, but he's everything that a girl ever wanted! at least i do. :)
oh2! most important, HE SPEAKS FLUENT ENGLISH! duh~

please oh please my future boyfriend/husband be like DAN HUMPHREY!
not that i'm being picky but someone like him would be nice.
if that's possible.
#GirlsAndTheirImaginationThatWouldNeverProbablyComeTrueEspeciallyAGirlLikeMe

ok random bye!

p/s: what you did to Serena in episode 35 season 2 is UNACCEPTABLE! c'mon, RACHEL CARR???? she's a bitch. and future BOYFRIEND/HUSBAND, please dont do that.

imma cry~

i cry when i'm REALLY confuse,
i cry when i'm REALLY anxious,
i cry when i'm REALLY pissed.

i almost cried
cos i was REALLY confuse.

RIGHT NOW,
i feel like crying
for i'm SUPER FUCKINGLY nervous.

O ALMIGHTY ALLAH,
please help me get through all this.
AMIN.

*gulp*

01-11-11

hello whaddup peeps~
assalam..

long time no write bloggy... been so busy maa.. being a uni student.. *hands on shoulder, mata ke atas*
 but u have time for twitter meh? errr... damdidamdidam..

it's just that whenever i click *write new post* all i see is a blank page. no ideas. maybe they jumped into UNIMAS LAKE. LOL

so like as usual, i turned LAPPY on, plugged BERUK in and tweet. i looked at the twitter trending column ( whatever they called it) and then it hits me. REASONS YOU ARE SINGLE.

i don't know if it is normal or not, but at this age, well maybe some say it is still too early, but my ICT lecturer in MATRIX once said, "girls, when you enter university, during your first year of study, YOU MUST start looking for a boyfriend/future husband." oookaaaayyy~ like it is sooooo important.. pffftt.. =,,="

well, it IS kinda suck watching people sitting with the boyfriend, talked bout their boyfriends, boyfriend this boyfriend that. WHY DON'T I HAVE ONE??

i'm not picky. well yes of course us girls like to woe guys like TAYLOR LAUTNER, but guys like him OBVIOUSLY are just illusions. duhhh~
it's just that people never really ask me the question.
when i say question i mean, "WOULD YOU BE MY GIRLFRIEND?" 
LOL
maybe they did. it's just that i don't really get it.
so please be straight forward to me, kay?

yes. people did confess that they have feelings for me. but i always question myself.
is his feeling real? or is he just fooling around to see whether i'm an easy-to-get girl or not?

how can you say you like me when we just know each other?
maybe i should stop asking questions. =,,='

even if my own friend said that they like me, i still ask the questions. and of course i'll keep it to myself.
cos i know it is gonna be sooo awkward like moving one step away from being friends.
but we know each other well. can't we just ..... ?
it's not i don't like you cos if it's true, i won't be your friends laaa doii..
in that case, you have to convince me real good ok?

oh well.. maybe IT IS too early for me. don't worry fatin. your time'll come soon. SOOOOON. just let time decides.. cewahhh! OR MAYBE this game will help. :)

why my post suddenly macam  luahan hati oo? haha.. who cares.. macam desperate pun ada jwak aku tekk.. LOL

OK! done yapping. gotta study for linguistic tomorrow! adios muchachos!!

P/S: it's 01-11-11, what should i do to remember this date? hmmm...

mm-hmm~

you know when sometimes you feel like crying but you don't exactly know WHY?
you will find a way or something that'll trigger your tears to fall.
you'll be fine afterwards.

awkward~

super awkward~ lantaklaa.. ada orang nak baca or tak.. like i care.. i just found a topic to share. cakap sorang2 macam sinetron indon tak salah kott~

my friend ni x pandai nak pronounce awkward. super cute! :)

i have lots of guy friends. no doubt. why? because i think they are much more easier to understand. ANNNND they are FUN and COOL~  = "  i still love you girlfriends!! ;)

eh.. eh.. having lotsa guy friends is not the awkward part.. the awkward part is when they start to act like weirdly towards you..

what do you mean by acting WEIRDLY?

well, when they start to take my jokes seriously..

what kinda jokes?

umm.. i don't know.. sometimes if we start talking bout marriage or dating or whatsoever, SOME of  'em will take it seriously. c'mon.. you know i like to fool around with words.. 'loyar buruk' or "nguras" as we call it is what i like to do mann~ ask my closest friends... they know how i am.. talking to random strangers which in the end will end up being my friends, is what i like.. I LOVE HAVING NEW FRIENDS! *wink*

i have this one weird - wait- AWKWARD experience.. i NEVER had a special boyfriend before.

why? are u a lesbo?

hell no!! i'm straight ok! its just that nobody ever confessed to me yet not that i care of cause maybe i'm not attractive enough to them.. lol.. my time will come.. *wink*

UNTIL one day.. hoho.. seriously, its an AWKWARD situation.. we just met.. he happens to be a friend of a friend of my cousin, whereby the friend of my cousin happens to be my friend too.. pening? haha.. lets put it this way.. A = the guy, B = my cousin's friend, C = my cousin.. SO, A is a friend of B, where B is a friend of C.. THEREFORE, A and B are my new friends.. get it?? still confused? urgh~ forget bout it..

so then bla bla bla... talk talk.. laugh laugh.. jokes.. yada yada.. we strolled at the beach tengok sunset.. there are 7 of us btw.. at the beach, we wrote our names on the sand.. lol. poyo gila.. =.=

cut to tthe chase, A dragged a loooooong arrow from his name to mine.. so everybody was like.. O_0

B : oooh~ seems like a silent confession.. haha
me: LOL!
D (another friend) : why dont you just say it out loud. alaa.. i'm sure u like honest guy rite fatin??
me: huh?? of course laa.. but this is awkward~~
A: (after kena paksa by his friends) fine~ first time when i saw u both, u're cute.. and u look like sh amani (pointing at me) i like u..
me: oookaaaayyyy.. this is tooootally awkward~ but thanks.. :)

then blablabla.. jadi bahan.. we left..
 
seriously, how awkward is THAT?? i think it is.. cause i just knew him for like what, 2 hours?? how can he tell me he likes me?? that's why i dont really believe in LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT. YET.

but i admire his courage to tell me that he likes me.  that is sooo sweet of him.. awww..  i didnt hate him for that.. i still treat him as a friend though.. oh ya, after the incident, B told me that A keep asking bout me.. xtaula he was just fooling with me kann.. whatever laa.. its not that i dont like him but he's younger than me. USTAZ REDZUAN told me to find at least someone that is at least 5 years OLDER.. hahak! HE said guys like younger girls.. yeke?? i just wanna be friends. tapi kalau dh jodoh nak buat macam mana kan :)

luckily most of my guy friends dah ada yang punya. so far, xde plak mslh with their awekss.. kawan je.. those yang xde awekss, i dont think they have feelings for me.. duh~  nanti rasa cam sumbang mahram plak sebab i dah rasa they all macam abang.. :)

dah tu, if you treat they all macam your brothers, how in hell are you gonna have a boyfriend, get married and have 4 kids?

errrkkk. tu belakang cerita laa! my time will come. :)
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do i really look like sh amani or sh aleya?? hmm.. awkward~

how i wish i could marry you.. *sigh*