my loneliness is killing me~

some might say that i'm weird, a freak. i say: THAT'S JUST WHO I AM.

tell me, do you like feeling lonely? the times when you feel empty in the inside, and there's no one around to entertain you.. the times when you feel like jumpinng up and down, banging your head to the wall, stomping your feet until the ground cracks, screaming on top of your lungs unitl you can't scream no more. the times when all there's left around you is TV, your guitar (which you don't even know how to play it and why the fuck do you have it in the first place), your laptop and voice inside your head telling you to do stuffs.. I DON'T LIKE THAT KINDA FEELING. wait.. lemme try that again.. I HATE THAT FEELING.

however, that's just how i felt for the past few weeks after my cousin went back to KL after her 8 months internship here, and after i went to KUCHING accompanying my mum to see an orthopaedic regardng her vertebrae. aaahh... how i want to go back to that time even though it was just a few weeks back. haha

now i'm back at home.. "my loneliness is killing me" as what my old friend britney says. SLOWLY. the only way to not feel lonely is to have my friends around. VIRTUALLY. as in FACEBOOK. yes. FACEBOOK has kept me un-'lonely' at home. i enjoy chatting with my friends online. they kinda entertain me. not only my closest friends, but some new friends i met, which i barely know. we never even met face to face, but we manage to get along very well. haha.. maybe that's just why i always hangout with them. i dont care if they say i'm the"group keeper" or something. i just enjoy myself there. THEY ROCK! haha

and guess what? they were all born in 1992! HOW COOL IS THAAAAT?! hahaha.. only them, yes them who make my day fun! ^^

can't wait to go back to kuching for raya!! 15 more days left.. KUCHING, HERE I COME!! :)