WRITTEN BY FATIN'S HORMONE

you know how sometimes women get all emotional when they're on their period?
well maybe not all but some probably which includes me.
its no joke, really.
i wont blame you guys whne you say women are complicated.
we just are okay.
deal with it.
like you guys are so straightforward.
pfffttt..

it could be PMS
or MS in which im not really sure is a medical term..
well what im trying to say is before the menses or during the menses.
in some cases,
all the time
like nisa's epp lecturer.

i dont know how exactly the hormones work
because i never like biology in school.
speaking of biology,
i actually cried studying for biology back in school and matriculations.
like i know it's the study of living things
and we're living things
hence we should know what's goin on in our body and all the living things in the universe.
but it's just so complicated you know..
like URGHHH!

okay fatin...
calm down....

so yeah...
hormones.
it's like you're warming up before you do your school play.
happy face!
sad face!
surprise face!
now angry...
laughing face!
i miss doing plays.
gossshh...
the old times..
being on stage,
coaching the juniors for their play..
and then they called you when they got the results,
which they got second place and best actor.
and you were rubbing lotions on your grandma's feet when you got the news.
then you just cried out of happiness,
then your grandma was like:

"nakpahal kau tang ada ada nangis? aiehh.."

and then they thanked you like non-stop...
okay im drifting again...
maybe i should write this in a different post.

where was i?
hormones.
right.

like it's like any other day,
it's not really a big deal,
then somehow those little things
make you snap
or in my case,
teary.

like today,
since 8 am.
all i did was cry.
i went to youtube and watch this leukemic kid on ellen
like he's a big fan of the utah jazz (its basketball) and how they let him play with them.
he was bouncing the ball,
and the other players just pretended to block him
like in a real game
and then they actually helped him dunk .
like that is so sweet of em.
like awwwwwww...
and then there's ellen,
who prsented a 10k gift for the treatment and everything.
how can you not cry??????

and ayah just told me that mama is probably going to kuching tomorrow
to visit my sick uncle.
and i dont wanna be left alone at home on weekends!
and im crying again.
great.

it's not noon yet
and my tear gland is half empty.

yours truly,
hormones.