ME VS SURGERY

assalam and whadduuuuuup!

so last Wednesday i went to the doctor to check  my eyes.

it's been red and itchy on and off.

it's not continuous.

i mean if it is, i know it's conjunctivitis.

so i have to stop wearing contact lens.

sigh~

so i went to Dr Roslan, apparently he's the only on doctor available here during chinese new year.

well there's Dr Masniah too but i don't know why didn't i go there.. hmmm

anywhooooo..

after waiting for like one and a half hour 'cause there're like dozens of people in the clinic,

so like sampai la my turn.

then i told him what's my problem.

then he directly concluded that i have allergies.

i dont know what kind and apparently i forgot to ask. darn me!

he asked whether my nose is blocked, my throat soars, my head ache, and do i ave fever?

i said yes, yes, yes and no.

ooooh~ he's gooooooood~

and so i have allergies.

then i asked him bout my bump on the back side of my wrist.

without even looking at it, he said it's ganglion cyst. for more info bout it, click here.

and it look something like this:

looking at all the photos in Google search, it really creeps me.

you know how much i hate these kinda things.

and now it's happening to me.

THE WORST PART IS:

it can only be treated with surgery. GULP*

so when i get back home, i told mama everything, so then she asked when do i want it to be removed?

oh i want it to be removed sooo badly, but i dont wanna go through surgeryy!!

XOXO

I THOUGHT WE'RE FAMILY?

assalaaaaaaaaaaamualaikum!

saya tok tek baruk jak balit dari pengilan makan hol nek idi ka nama nya tek oo.....?
nisik la saya tok ingat.. nya bala belah dak bapak saya bah..
jadi saya kurang mengetahui lah..
 pagi tadik ayah suruh padah ngan mama,
malam tok tek gi rumah uncle G ada makan hol lekak isya'.

so pegi lah tekkk..
ingat kmk urg tek sampe aherrr.
tapi cam sampe2 tek urang baruk maca doa..
fuhhh selamat..

masok la ke dalam where urang rempuan selalu duduk nak..
pum pam pum pam abis macam doa, cam besalah makan..
alu nek udak padah:

"bah, makanlah gik nun. nyaman ke rumah sigek gik."
"rumah ne gik?" mama said.
"ah, xdalah. makan makan.

okaaaayy..  something's fishy.

walopun kenyang kak makan sugarbun tek, tapi saya ngan mama tek makan jwak.
hormat bah ngan urang dah nyeruk tek nakkk..
tengah2 makan nyaman tek, one by one urang balit..
aik? awal na jwak?

me and mama tek nang muka eran blur abis lah..
datanglah mak cik sorang tok tek nanyak, "sik gi rumah mak ot ko?"
mak(nek) ot tok kira cam sorang gik la bala belah dak ayah.

mama: ah? rumah mak ot tek ad jwakk?
mak cik: aokk.. nak gi sinun lah tok.. kau sik?
mama: kaktoklah ke sinun..

di sini saya merasa amat pelik.
camne 2 related people, having the same pengilan? on the same night?
how could they leave rumah nek udak cmya jak?
imagine lah sik sampe 10 mins rumah ya terus puang..
urang semua ke rumah nun..
cam kesian lah saya ngan nek udak tek..

so i told my pelikness to mama..
mama just padah, mama rasa ada confrontation..
ada la nisik betul tek..
mama padah that nek idi ninggal last year di rumah nek udak.
tapi cam family belah nek ot tek rasa cm ny adik beradik tek so nya harus polah jwak.
camya la conclusion mama.

but still, how?? cam peluuu kah?
i mean, family bah?
dari rumah ya sampe balit pengilan saya tek pnde itok..
bila lau rumah nek ot tek yang xla jaoh dari siaa, nang rami jak keretaa..

this is one thing that i dont understand bout my family belah my dad.

peace out y'all!

30 RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME

assalam and whadduuuuuuupp?!

so twitter has this #30thingsaboutme. 

i find it ridiculous to tweet bout it 'cause it's 30 man!! 

i might as well just post it on my blog since i have one. *wink*

so here goes the 30 random things....

#1

i'm in love with TAYLOR LAUTNER!

he's the only guy that makes me smile. for now

#2

i never had a boyfriend until now.

it sometimes bug me, but i dont really give a damn.

if he wants me, he'll tell me right to my face.. ;D

#3

i like to talk to random strangers.

cashier at a store, makcik jual kuih, pakcik kat kedai kopi... name them all.. i layan them all.. hahah!

sometimes the convos are craps ("nguras" as what sarawakian called it)

#4

i am not very fond of kids.

but somehow they tend to be attached to me..

#5

i dont like wounds, cuts, stitches, unattached body parts (including hair), BLOOD, and benda yang sewaktu dengannya.

i just cannot deal with those things.

#6

i like to laugh..

when i laugh hard, i tend to snort which amy called it as the "tetak-kedak-kaler-ijo",

with a high pitch sound which roza called as "tetak manok beranak".

#7

i smile to anybody who makes eye contact with me..

girls, kids, guys (*wink*), uncles, aunties, grandpas, grandmas.

i SMILE WITH ALL MY HEART!

#8

i am only 149 cm tall, and i weigh about 47 kg.

balance BMI.

however people always assume that i'm still in scool..

#9

i always get sick before exams.

i went for diagnosis in form 3.

the doctor said i have severe anxiety..

it's not a disorder since it's it's only severe..

#10

my left leg is longer than the right one.

my foot was slightly bent in when i was 8.

and i went for therapy to get it right.

#11

i dont have childhood friends so i'm a loner.

my only childhood friends are my cousins..

#12

i have a very long name

i only have one brother, and my sister died due to some birth complication.

so my parents decided to put together all the names in the book

knowing they wouldn't have many kids.

it sometimes pisses me off to write such long names

#13

a friend told me that i'm super friendly

i sometimes fear that my friendliness is being misunderstood

#14

people's first impression towards me is always "snobby"

after knowing me for quite some times, they say i'm crazy!

#15

i love lion dance!!

they're so cute and fluffy!! *agnes' tone in despicable me*

#16

i'm not an animal lover..

i mean not even a hater..

i just don't like to cuddle with animals..

especially rats or any rodents and frogs!

#17

my mum is my best friend

#18

i go crazy over bags whenever i go out with ma friendsss..

i love love love love love bagsss!!

#19

i cannot go out without fragrances..

i must smell nice wherever i go..

even to fetch the papers.. 

#20

i hate it when people mention about my mole..

never ask bout it, never look at it..

so be it!

#21

i switched off any unused socket that is switched on.

regardless the place..

hotels, malls, schools, etc.

#22

i was born on the same day as TAYLOR LAUTNER!

we share the same birhtday!

we'll be turning 20 together this coming february!!

woohooo!!

;D

#23

despite the fact that i'm short,

the only sport that i enjoy playing is basketball..

#24

i'm almost 20 and i still watch cartoons!!

animes, disney, nickelodeon, cartoon network - i watch em all!

#25

linkin park's songs are awesome!!

i never get bored listening to them..

i even held my own concert almost everyday..

hahah!

#26

i sleep with my lights on.

not that i'm afraid of the dark,

it's just that i'm kinda night blind,

and it's hard for me to sleep in the dark.

but u can switch of the light when i'm fast asleep..

#27

i am very bad at giving directions.

#28

i am very observant.

i like to observe people.

their behaviour, attitiudes, everything lah!

#29

indeed i am loud and outspoken.

u can talk just about anything to me

i wont judge. ;D

#30

there's actually more than 30 things u should know bout me.

i'm a leftie, i like to eat eggs,etc.

be my friend to know more!

a new friend never hurts!

unless they're bitches!!

this is tiring..

adios muchachos!

^^

CERITA LAMAK MAREK

assalam & whadduuuuup!

last saturday was qaisara's birthday..

she turned 6..

and so her mum bought a mini bowling set..

alu laaah KLMJ..

hahah! bukan paaa.. 

tringat laa menseya marek ehh.. taun 98 kah oo..

nak taun urg gago sukan komanwel ehhh..

nak gimrama menang emas ya ehhh..

cam time ya rah sibo tek nakkk..

diamlah d rumah  udak di lanang..

nisa duak syerah pun ada lah bowling set ya tekk..

ada bola, ada pin..

menseya juak tek cm bgagan bah molah tali from getah sambung2..

alu lah kmk urg tek layan gymnasts juak..

sama masin ngakuk dirik malaysian gymnasts tekk..

duuunaaakkk.. duweee~

dolok ng apal eh nama2 sidak yaaa..

muka ng kacak laa..

idong mancung jakkk..

hoho..

kakya mandik lam besen main pusin2..

time ya syerah xpnde pronounce HELP.

jd instead of HELP, ny pdh HILP..

lucu!

saya pun x tauk nakpahal saya pnde ingat cerita kedak tok.. 

xtauk la mun sidak gik ingat sik..

haihhh..

ok ya jak! toodles! ^^

how i wanna raise my children

assalam and whadduuuup peepssss!

so far, my hols is as normal as ever..

waking up to the sound of qaireen's crying,

dealing with annoying kids who annoys me everyday..

ninek ngerepak bisin-bisin..

yup! that's just it.. if i'm in kuching that is...

yessss... i'm not very fond of kids..

kids are A-N-N-O-Y-I-N-G.

yeaaa they look cute and all BUT........!

as much as i'm annoyed by kids, i still want children of my own.. duh~

the feeling of before getting pregnant (ehem ehem..)

the feeling of getting pregnant..

the feeling of delivering le baby..

awww... i know its still too early to think bout all this, but who cares??

how would i wanna raise my kids??

1) malay + american style = still want my kids to know the malay cultures but at the same time, give a lil touch of how american raise their kids.. they dont pukul their kids but they turned out just fine. i mean minus the sex at 16 part and some other non-acceptable-cultures of them.. malay + islamic style of raising kids will cover that part.. :)

2) english education is a must!

3) provide my kids with everything that i can afford but at the same time not over-pampering them.

4) family time on weekends..

5) family vacations during school holidays..

6) treat 'em as friends but still jaga the batas so they wont naik kepala.

7) i dont think i wanna send em for boarding school.. na-ah..

8) no mtv until they're 13.. i dont want them to sing along to GAGA or LMFAO or AKON bfore tht age.. let em learn TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STAR or BAA BAA BLACK SHEEP etc.

that's all i could think of for the time being. i'll do more observations and 'll update more later. :)

toodles! ^^

END OF SEM 1!!

ASSALAM & WHADDUUUUUUUUP!!

FINALS ARE OVER!

so that concludes my first semester of being a cognitive science student in unimas!

and also ze fact zat i will not be staying in ze college next semester..

yupp! gotta find a place to crash next semester..

few options to consider:

1) stay at my grandparents', could borrow nek us car to go to class or maybe my parents could buy me a car! (like zat's gonna happen... @_@)

2) rent a house near unimas (desa ilmu area to be exact) with amy and prolly choomie. bus provided. or i could learn to ride a biycle this sem break.. haha

3) marry a guy with a huge mansion so i could stay with him!

option #2 is ze best solution yet, so amy n i is working our ass off to look for a house/apartment for rent. dont really have to worry bout transportation. and i am so excited to stay in my own house!! i mean, it's not really mine but then alaaa... u know what i mean..

option #3 is not really an option. i CANNOT  get married just yet. not ready yet maa.. and plus, JPA would stop sponsoring my studies.. no way jose!

as for option #1, yeaaaaa.. i dunno.. lemme think first..

gee~ tough decision huh? o well.. what's life without challenges. ^^

ADIOS MUCHACHOS!!

I'M A SMARTASS!

dear lonely me,

now i know the reason why i'm still single! i'm a SMARTASS!

"A smart person would rather be single than to be lied to, cheated on, & disrespected. "- esther enjawa

sincerely,
me living in denial.

p/s: i doubt the quote is actually from her but i saw she posted it. :)

BANJIR DATANG LAGI!!

assalam & whaddup peeepss!!

yes yes... exam.. study... study... bla bla bla...

hey, if cognition overlaps, i need rest maaa....

okaaayyy...

so when i woke up this morn, it was raining cats & dogs. 

not literally though. LOL! cannot imagine if i meant it literally.. 

*imagining cats & dogs falling from the sky with the barks and meows*

and so they said: KUCHING BANJIR! 

i dunno if there's flood here in UNIMAS. 

dude, i'm staying on the 3rd floor.. 

still in my PJs.. too cold too mandi man!

teringat zaman dahulu kala.. 

banjir di rumah nek us.. excited sangat-sangat. 

lemme try that again.. 

EXCITED SANGAT-SANGAT!! 

macam nampak swimming pool depan rumah. gago la kedirik nak main aek. hahah!

depan my grandparents' house ada this longkang kecik which was covered by a papan. 

but every time if banjir, the papan will be lifted up. 

so EVERYTIME when i wanna go out of the house during banjir, no matter how careful i was, 

I WOULD DEFINITELY FALL DOWN. 

tripped over the small longkang. LOL!

that time, my brother was shoooo shmall.

 my uncle akan letak him in a besen and float him away! 

yesss.. he floated. 

imagine putting him NOW in the basin. TENGGELAM! hahahahaahah!

i remembered that one particular year where kuching banjir teruk. and we were in the NEWS!! 

everybody was there, the monyet tua from rumah sebelah.. hahahha.. 

memoriessss~ 

wait, was it ONLY my imagination?? well who caresssss.. 

*eye-roll*

if dulu-dulu banjir, ada la orang yang tolong angkat kerusi, meja, sofa, tv, etc naik atas. 

now?? siapa nak angkat??? 

nek us??? well maybe he can, but not doing it alone.. 

nek anjang???? noooo waaaayyy.. 

nek ni??? uh-uh..

yok??? she would, but she can't.

well, i called home this morn, asking whether the water masuk dalam or not. nasib baik air main kat luar je. takut kott nak masuk dalam.. LOL!

aite!

adios muchachos!

(^3^)

p/s: nang dudok lam bilit jak la today.. makan maggi lagiiiiiii~

TIRED OF READING.. =.='

assalam & whaddup peepsss!

i know i know..
should b studying by now.. but i'm kinda bored.. =.='

woke up early at 6.30 today.. but then it rained like heavily.. so i snooze off.. teehee~
went to the fculty general office today..
on my way, met heikal..
he went to see the dean regarding his exam slip.. he claimed he didn't take English Prep 2, but the slip said he did.. blablabla..
here's something to share.. he always look nervous talking to me.. can see his trembling..
nak padah nya sik besa kelaka  ngan rempuan, kawan nya cam rempuan..
nak madah nya suka ngan aku (edeh!), nya dah da gerek..
skati la.. xdak u gago hal kau ehh..

then on my way back, met some random people.
i smiled to EVERYONE (yes.. i did) as usual..
a couple of guys actually "clicked' to get my attention i guess..
but i ignored.. then they say: SOMBONG..
whatev~ malas ku lalek.. at least ku senyum nak.. :)

then lalu another group of people with one girl..
they were talking, then i smiled, then they stopped talking, then the girl actually said: COMEL GILERR.
then i was like (in my thoughts) : eh? kamek ka? hehe... perasan abiss..

then met zikri & salam on their way to exam..
zikri actually bigger than the last time i saw him..
xtaukla maybe i haven't seen him for quite a long time..
or the fact he was walking with salam.. oops! no offence. X)
or maybe nang nya berisik..
apa2 la..

then jumpa jorim..
boy i haven't see him for a looooong time..

who else ??
ya jak kali.. ok!
time to read more..

adios muchachos!!

(^3^)

2011 memories

assalam & whadduuuuup?!

i know i should be studying rite now for it's study week and exam is just around the bush. i mean corner. =,,=

but i'm kinda bored and the studying mood is... well... hey! where it go?? =,,=

anywhooo...
it's almost the end of 2011!!
i just wanna highlight some of my memories throughout the YEEEAAAR~

my first new year away from family..
my roomie composed a song for me.. :)
new friends, old friends, new-old friends..
crushes, admirers.. teehee~
2 confessions.. but cant really tell whether he was serious or not.. LOL
my DRIVING LICENSE!
getting in to UNIMAS.. : /
awesome raya celebration!! baju kebaya for all!
awesome time with my cuzziessss!!

these are all the memories i could remember by now..
goodbye 2011, HELLO 2012!!

you know you love me, XOXO
^3^

p/s: awesome time with my best girl on the last day of 2011, and more awesome time with my other best girls on the first day of 2012!! you guys are totally AWESOOOOOMEE!! XD