WHAT HAVE I DONE TO MY LIFE?!

assalamualaikum!

dramatic post title huh?

because today is the most unproductive day ever in the history of midterm break for 2nd semester 2nd year!

i woke up early helping mama for a little bit of spring cleaning.

and then we had breakfast while watching TV and that's when the unproductivity started.

we watched TV,

we munch,

we napped.

we even pretended that it was Raya and mama was my guest and i served her Coke.

and the only biskut raya i have is "sempret" whih was actually biskut ais jem.

"sigek jak biskut raya polah tak taun tok?
sempret jak?" - Mama

then mama voiced out her cravings for lamb chop so i suggested that we go out for dinner.

but NO.

it was 7.30 pm and she was napping and i just dont have the heart to wake her up.

so i ended watching Kids Choice Award rerun on MTV and fell asleep.

i woke up at 10.30 pm realising that my life is such a wreck!

the only productive thing i did was helping Amy with her business maths tutorial because i just love solving maths problems!

ngehehe~

so to cover up my unproductive saturday, let me tell you what i've been up to this whole week.

arrived in Bintulu on monday and mama fetched me at the airport.

i was supposed to go the bank to settle some stuff so mama let me used the car for the day and that she'll call if she wanted to go home... from work.

but i ended up staying at home doing my assignment which was due on tuesday.

i stayed up the whole night doing the assignment and only slept for a couple of hours.

i was still awake when mama was about to take off to work.

mama asked whether i wanna use the car that day

but i said no because i need to bayar tidur.

so i managed to bank-hop on wednesday.

settling the unsettled.

  

after i fetched mama from work,

we went to Kak Nur's to see baby Uwais.

he is soooooooo adorable!

Uwais Umar

i was still on the road on thursday.

i managed to buy breakfast for me and ayah.

i bought 2 nasi lemak which was supposed to be for ayah and me but i ended up eating both. =='

then there's potato-filled spring roll and karipap.

the spring roll was super yummy that i regretted buying only RM1.

i went to do do my passport later at noon for our trip to Jakarta next year for my cousin's wedding. hewhewhew

chubby me!

i went to some doa selamat at my uncle's house that night.

i was being an antisocial: sitting at the corner staring at my phone and smiling.

a makcik/nenek mumbled something like "apa senyum-senyum nangga telipon dari tadik" and stared at me.

i totally ignored her. hahah!

and yesterday, i managed to do some revision since all the unsettled was settled except for cutting my hair short which was supposed to be done today because i have to go back tomorrow.

we went out for dinner with Kak Yot because mama was craving for ketam.

and Kak Yot is soo lurus bendul that she believed every crap that mama and i said. hahah!

kesian Kak Yot.

oh!

dont let me start on my driving experience here in Bintulu!

i'll tell you some other time.

so for now, i need to pack.

toodles!

xoxo,

-FF-

APRIL 7TH, 2013: HAPPY 21 MOON!

assalamualikum!

it was SITI MUNIRAH JOHARI 's birthday so we wanted to surprise her.

we supposed to buy a cake and bring it over to her house that morning

unfortunately, she went out with her mom to *Serikin and will only be back by noon.

at least that's what she told Syaza.

because Syaza texted her the night before saying that she wanted to "bring her out" since it's her birthday..

pfffftt..

so changed of plans.

we bought a cake a little bit later.

and we waited at her house until she came back.

Munirah's desk. i gave her the skeleton
for her test.

her desk was the only one in the tv area
sik eran lah moon pahal urg anok kau..

Roza had a headache and she laid down  most of the time

it was way past noon but there's still no sign of muni.

ugh! so Syaza texted her again asking what time will she return?!

she said she will be VERY late and will text Syaza again as soon as she arrived home.

so we decided to went out for lunch.

we told Shen, her housemate to text me if she came back.

we went to McDonald's.

then to Roza's daddy's house.

then we killed time at Syaza's house.

then came a text!

Shen said muni is already home.

Why didnt she text Syaza??!

so we rushed to her house because it was already 4 and Syaza had to fetch Ibu at 5.

Shen asked us to take our time because Muni was still in the shower.

we know Munirah for a very long time. we knew she'll text Syaza after she was done in the shower.

HAHAH!

so we let ourselves in because Shen left the gate unlocked.

we prepared everything while she was still upstairs.

we had to be super fast!

so we brought the cake upstairs and apparently i accidentally blew up the candle because i need to laugh looking at Muni's surprised face. sorry Muni!

we left her with the cake because we were already late to fetch Ibu.

and that was the first time seeing Ibu get mad and it was scary..

sobsss...

soooooooo...

SITI MUNIRAH BINTI JOHARI.

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYY!

walaupun kau selalu jadi bahan anok kamek urang,

that's how we show our lovessss to youuuuuu!!

heheh.. aku tauk kau sikkan baca tok tapiiiiii..

SUKATI AKU!

xoxo,

-FF-

SNOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRE~~

assalamualaikum!

i just submitted my virtual reality literature review.

uploaded the soft copy to the morpheus.

and i asked my junior to help me to hand in the hard copy to Dr K.

thank you zam!

i wanted to tell you guys about the muni's birthday surprise last sunday but my eyes just wont tolerate.

for now i need to take a long nap because i only slept for 3 hours last night.

sooooooooooooooooooooooo........

zzzzzzzzzzz.......

xoxo, 

-FF-

YA RABBI SHOLLI ALA MUHAMMAD, YA RABBI SHOLLI ALAIHI WA SALLIM

assalamualikum!

so last night i went to Usu Timah's house for some gathering because she just moved in to her new house. 

we perform solat jamaah for Maghrib and Isya.

Abg John brought some of his friends after Maghrib prayer for Yaasin Recital followed by Doa Selamat pindah rumah. 

Then Abang John and friends recite the zikir Qasidah and it was beautiful. 

it's not everyday that we could cleanse our soul with zikir. 

Alhamdulillah~

i fell in love with the zikir last night so as i reached home i turned on my laptop and downloaded the 

Qasidah Ya Hanana. 

i wanted to download the rest of the zikir but unfortunately i dont know the title. 

so if any of you knows it, please let me know. and thank you in advance. :)

يَا هَنَانَا

ya hana na

Betapa Beruntungnya Kami 

ظَهَرَ الدِّينُ المُؤَيَّد   بِظُهُورِالنَّبِى اَحمَد

dzoharoddiinul muayyad bidzhuhuurin nabi ahmad 

Telah muncul agama yang didukung,  dengan munculnya sang Nabi Ahmad

يَا هَنَانَــــــــا بِمُحَمَّد  ذَلِكَ الفَضلُ مِنَ الله

ya hana na bimuhammad   dzalikal fadhlu minallah

Betapa beruntungnya kami dengan Muhammad (Saw), itulah anugerah daripada Allah SWT

يَا هَنَانَا

ya hana na

Betapa Beruntungnya Kami 

خُصَّ بِالسَّبعِ المَثَانِى   وَحَوى لُطفَ المَعَأنِى

khusho bissab’il matsani   wa hawa luthfal ma’ani

Diistimewakan dengan as-Sab’ul Matsany (al-Fatihah), penghimpun rahsia bagi setiap makna

مَالَهُ فِى الخَلقِ ثَانِى   وَعَلَيهِ اَنزَلَ الله

ma lahu fil kholqi tsani   wa a’laihi anzalallah

Tidak ada yang senilai dengannya, dan Allah mewahyukan kepadanya (Muhammad SAW)

يَا هَنَانَا

ya hana na

Betapa Beruntungnya Kami 

مِن مَكَّةٍ لَمَّا ظَهَر    لِاَجلِهِ انشَقَ القَمَر

min makkatillamma dzohar    liajlihin syaqqal qomar

Ketika di Makkah bulan tampak terbelah deminya (Muhammad SAW), 

وَافتخَرَت الُ مُضَر   بِهِ عَلى كُلِّ الاَنَام

waf takhorot aalu mudhor     bihi ala kullil anam

lalu kabilah Mudhar (kabilah Muhammad SAW) dibanggakan oleh seluruh manusia

يَاهَانَانَأ

ya hana na

Betapa beruntungnya kami

اَطيَبُ النَّاسِ خَلقًا   وَاَجَلُّ النَّاسِ خُلُقُا

athyabunnasi kholqon   wa ajallunnasi khuluqon

Beliau adalah manusia yang terbaik ciptaanNya, dan teragung akhlaknya

ذِكرُهُ غَربًا وَشَرقًا   سَائِرٌ وَالحَمدُ لِله

dzikruhu ghorbaw wa syarqon    saa iruw walhamdu lillah

Semua berzikir ke atasnya samada di barat atau di timur, segala puji hanya bagi Allah SWT

يَاهَنَانَا

ya hana na

Betapa beruntungnya kami

صَلُّوا عَلى خَيرِ الاَنَام   المُصطَفَى بَدرِالتَّمَام

shollu a’la khoiril anami   al musthofa badrittamami

Berselawatlah ke atas sebaik-baik manusia (Muhammad SAW) yang terpilih, sang bulan purnama

صَلُّوا عَلَيهِ وَسَلِّمُوا   يَشفَع لَنَأ يَومَ الزِّحَام

shollu a’laihi wasallimu  yasyfa’ lana yaumazzihami

Sampaikanlah salam kepadanya, moga diberi syafaat di hari kebangkitan

يَا هَنَانَا

ya hana na

Betapa beruntungnya kami

WHAT IF WE NEVER MEET EACH OTHER?

assalamualaikum!

let's go back to 2004 shall we? because i just feel like going down the memory lane.. 

and because I CAN. 

so if you dont feel like reading it, you can always go to 9GAG.

so.

this was the year where i represented my school for a quiz competition in Majlis Islam Sarawak. we were just done with the preliminary round where we won and had to compete again the next day for finals.

anywhoooo...

we were supposed to hang out with our ustazah but apparently she went out with her bestfriend and her bestfriend left her students with u in the room. 

and kids, 

this is HOW I MET YOUR AUNT SYAZA.

it's such a small world they said.

some stranger you met in a competition,

 and you met her again during your freshmen year in high school and she was the only friend you had,

then she became your bestfriend during the senior year 

and now, she still is.

well this is a dedication to Syaza Izzati binti Mohd Amir a.k.a zetty amir 

who has been a friend, 

a bestfriend, 

a sister 

and somewhat a mother to me too. 

so here goes...

i'm gonna type in my native language for emotional reason and if you dont understand, well, ASK!

saza..

ko tauk aku sayang kau walaupun aku sik mok pelok kau sebab aku rasa sangat ceridak! 

hahah.. 

tapi sebenanrnya aku sikmok pelok kau sebab aku takut aku sikmok lepaskan kau sebab aku sayang kau gilak. 

i mean kita dah bekawan lamak bah. 

i know you very very very very (this can go on for ages) well. 

we basically grew up together. 

aku ingat gik time form 1, kita 2 belajar sejarah sama2 d suro sebab nak exam. 

ok cerita tok sekda motif jadi sila ignore. 

thank you jadi kawan aku time form 1 time sekda urang mok kawan ngan aku. walaupun lepas ya kita sik rapat gilak tapi kita rapat balit time form 4 nak? heee...

thank you for the late night birthday surprise time form 5. 

thank you jaga aku time aku demam teruk, ko tolong isik borang pegi klinik kat puan hawa, walaupun lepas ya kau gik demam and terpaksa kenak kuarantin sebab suspected H1N1. 

thank you for selalu jadi my personal driver aku mun aku ajak ko keluar, kau ambik aku di samarahan mun sekda urang mok ambik aku balit kuching, ko anta aku gi exam bila sekda urang nak anta aku.. 

thank you for being kawan gila aku bila aku rasa gila sebab aku rasa dolok aku sik gila pun. aku lah yang paling warassss sekali. lalalala~ 

banyak gilak nak di thank you aku ke kau. 

jadi to sum it all up, thank you for being where you are right now. 

THANK YOU SAZA. 

aku sangatlah xpande nak bermadah bahasa jadi what you see is what you get lah..

saza, kaulah antara perempuan yang aku rasa sangat tabah dan sangat positif.

you make difficult things easy, 

you make depressing situations fun, 

you change tears to laughter. 

you never see the worst of things. 

you always see the silver lining the clouds. 

well,

you ARE THE zetty amir.

*imaginary hug* a long one...

xoxo,

-FF-

p/s: tolong jangan ungkit this post bila kita bersua muka! malu tauk! ksaza!

MY SATURDAY NIGHT

assalamualaikum people!

just got back from FSKPM 8 INTELLIGENCE TALENT SHOW in UNIMAS with nisa.

i just HAVE to post this before i forgot. 

nisa insisted on me to go with her. she even said she would pick me up then send me back home and that she'll buy the ticket for me. i just couldnt say no so yeah.

she fetched me up so early that i made her wait for me.

 random fact: i dont like people to wait for me. mama always said, 

"dont let people wait for you, you're the one who should be waiting." 

i guess i took this advice too serious and that's why im still waiting for mr right because he shouldnt be waiting for me. 

eh? ok merapu.

anywhoooooooo we stopped by The Spring because it was still too early and also because amy said she bought a pair of PDI jeans for only 30 bucks. 

unfortunately we didnt find it. oh well....

so we walked around keluar masuk kedai and ended up having our early dinner. 

we even stopped by for starbucks before heading to UNIMAS. 

nisa was annoyed by the cashier who happened to be someone that she knows. 

long story short, she said something like, 

"do you want to top up? or this is your last 20 bucks in your wallet? if that's the case then i understand."

oookaaaaayyyyyy...

so the event supposed to start at 7.30 and we arrived 15 minutes late and you guess it right! 

the event started  at 8 30. janji melayuuuuuu...

among the performances are fashion show, martial arts, drama, singing, live band and to top it all, MODERN DANCE! 

GOOD GIRLS GONE WILD!! 

we blamed the starbucks for making us so hyper that we didnt care what other people think.

we shouted the performers' names out randomly..

we sang along to the singing performances..

we cheered for hot/cute guys... 

we danced along to the modern dance performance like CRAYYYY! 

memang mun ada urang laki jatuh cinta ngan mek duak malam tok tek terus turn off nangga olah sik kedak anak melayuuu.. 

heheh..

i came back finding that the gate is locked and had to call for someone to open the gate.

i guess that's my saturday night, how's yours?

xoxo,

-FF-

LIFE UPDATES!

assalamu alaikum!

hi! remember me?

yes. the reason i havent updated my blog for so long is that i was somewhere out of malaysia enjoying my vacation before because i can.

PFFT.. I WISH.

i know right? i lost track of my life ever since i was 21... GOSH.. is this how it feels like to be old??? NOOOOOOOOOO!

i dont even have a turning 21 post. my life is now a disaster. please pray for me. *bismillahirrahmanirrahim......*

ok enough ranting. here's some updates:

turned 21 on february 11, together with taylor lautner (yes. mok padah jwak!). had dinner with le familia and adik was there too because he was on his midterm break. thank you mama and ayah for the dinner! thank you adek and ayu for the card and the plaque and the book! thank you people for the wishes on facebook, twitter, and not to forget for calling and texting and bbming me! heart heart heart you guys mmuuuaaahhhh!

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started my 4th semester as a cognitive science student on the february 18. remeber that i missed the bus to class on my first day of last semester? i missed it again this semester. i guess i was cursed to miss the bus on the first day. oh well... and oh! i am not in the same class as anis and/or girl this semester because they managed to register for elective class which i did not. so i ended being in the class sitting with random people and being in the same group with different people. hey, its kinda fun!

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sent everyone to the airport on february 21. they were all going to johor then singapore for a holiday. i didnt tag along because i have class and that i had to be a road runner for the neneks at home. not much of a help though. heheh.. went karaoke-ing with amy that friday to kill time because i need to fetch nek ni from the dialysis centre at 7 30 pm. went out with syaza the friend the next day. karaoke lagi... and went to the funfair with amy, atul and nellie that night. i only went on the spinning ride then i was all dizzy and couldnt get on more rides. boo me...! see? not much of a help right? heheh..

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celebrated syaza's birthday on march 2. but we did had lunch together at chicago 7 because muni wanted to eat there. then we went karaoke-ing in which muni refused tapi nya jwak yang over berlaguuuuu... i promised her a birthday shout out but didnt manage to do that because i had an assignment due that sunday. soooooooo HAPPY 21 SYAZA IZZATI BINTI MOHD AMIR!! kelak aku polah sigek post khas pake kau sorang ah.. xoxo

there are more to update. but i guess i'll just post it in another entry.

i gotta go! toodles!

xoxo,

-FF-

ANOTHER GLOOMY DAY

assalamualaikum.

something doesn't feel right. 

it's like as if i did something wrong but i'm not aware of what's the thing that i did wrong. 

it's like turning 19 all over again. 

Ya Allah, help me endure this. 

if there really is something i did wrong, please forgive me. 

and if my wrong is to another sister or brother, 

please open up their heart to forgive me for whatever i did wrong.

:)

xoxo,

-FF-

INSECURITY KILLS THE INSECT

assalamualaikum and whaddup!

i must say, i'm the most insecure person on earth. i'm not sure why, but it surely is disturbing.

1) sometimes when i go out, i always feel that there's something that's not right whether it's my clothes, my face or my whole look for the day..

2) when i enter a store, and i get that weird stare, i would start checking out myself if there's something wrong. to make myself feel better, i will positively think that probably they're just looking around and bam! there i was.

3) when i pass by a group of people and they suddenly laugh or smirk, i always think that they're laughing at me. and i'll said to myself  "i know my defects. please dont laugh.." even though they were actually laughing at something else.

4) i think that i annoy people when they stop talking to me, or stop texting, or replying me. even though there's a whole lot of other reasons to that. i told ya. it's my insecurities..

5) and oh.. i always think that many people dont really like me that they will always avoid me because i talk too much and they dont wanna listen to my stories because it's too boring. i usually stop talking when i get that vibe.

there's a whole lot more of this. i feel self insecure almost everytime. THIS has to stop.

xoxo

-FF-

KK VACAY - SUPER!

Day 3 - January 23, 2013

rise and shine! 

couldn't really sleep last night because it was too cold even though the room is not air-conditioned. 

kept on waking up and finally switched off the fan.

Maggi in cup for breakfast before walking to Poring to enjoy some hot spring and of course the famous canopy walk. 

we were not allowed to take photos on the canopy unless you pay RM5 for each camera you used.

rebellious teenagers as we are, we didn't pay but girls gotta be girls. 

dozens of photos taken on the canopy and we didn't even pay for it. 

i know. we were such badasses. 

*insert badass pose*

we had luch at Mama Cafe again before heading back to KK. 

we supposed to meet up with Ann, Kele and Eric again at KFC but apparently the electricity suddenly went out. 

we didn't wanna have cold meal because we were super hungry. 

so yeah..

we said goodbye to Ann, Kele and Eric. 

and oh! Ann brought her cute little brother along. 

he was super friendly. 

i love that kid. he hugged me before we went back. 

Boboy is so huggable!

Roomates! (Ann on the left and Sofia on the right)
That's Boboy! see how huggable he is??

Kele, Ann, Sofia, Muni, Eric..
Boboy and me!

we stopped by for some durian because it was super cheap. 

RM3 per kilo! 

i ate one whole durian and a half. 

bet you can guess how i slept that night.. 

heheh..

the upside down house was just by the roadside on our way back to KK. 

we passed by it on our way to Kundasang but Roza and Sofia planned that we went there on our way back.

the house was really upside down.

see?

now how did that get up there?

front door

roza and sofia didn't go in with us because they said they went there so many times that they memorised every angle of the house.

everything about the house is upside down. 

ALL the stuff in the house are upside down. 

i cannot show how the inside looks like because no camera is allowed in the house. 

ok. 

imagine youe house is upside down. 

yep. 

now you get the picture.

the heaviest thing in the house is the sewing machine and yes. it is upside down. 

the lady in the house said all the stuff are attached to the ceiling with nails, screws and some are with glue.

wait, floor? ceiling? ok now im confuse.

then we went to roza's rental house to help her pack. 

we headed to Perdana Park later to watch the fountain orchestra. 

munirah was so excited. 

not that i wasnt excited but i was trying to record the fountain in action with my phone.

but it ended up with munirah voice. 

in my video. 

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i could say it is a perfect dating spot for couples. oh! and perfect spot for a marriage proposal. 

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note that future husband!

we went back home early that night because everyone was tired and another long day planned ahead.

sooo ummm.. good night!

xoxo,

-FF-