WHAT IF WE NEVER MEET EACH OTHER?

assalamualaikum!

let's go back to 2004 shall we? because i just feel like going down the memory lane.. 

and because I CAN. 

so if you dont feel like reading it, you can always go to 9GAG.

so.

this was the year where i represented my school for a quiz competition in Majlis Islam Sarawak. we were just done with the preliminary round where we won and had to compete again the next day for finals.

anywhoooo...

we were supposed to hang out with our ustazah but apparently she went out with her bestfriend and her bestfriend left her students with u in the room. 

and kids, 

this is HOW I MET YOUR AUNT SYAZA.

it's such a small world they said.

some stranger you met in a competition,

 and you met her again during your freshmen year in high school and she was the only friend you had,

then she became your bestfriend during the senior year 

and now, she still is.

well this is a dedication to Syaza Izzati binti Mohd Amir a.k.a zetty amir 

who has been a friend, 

a bestfriend, 

a sister 

and somewhat a mother to me too. 

so here goes...

i'm gonna type in my native language for emotional reason and if you dont understand, well, ASK!

saza..

ko tauk aku sayang kau walaupun aku sik mok pelok kau sebab aku rasa sangat ceridak! 

hahah.. 

tapi sebenanrnya aku sikmok pelok kau sebab aku takut aku sikmok lepaskan kau sebab aku sayang kau gilak. 

i mean kita dah bekawan lamak bah. 

i know you very very very very (this can go on for ages) well. 

we basically grew up together. 

aku ingat gik time form 1, kita 2 belajar sejarah sama2 d suro sebab nak exam. 

ok cerita tok sekda motif jadi sila ignore. 

thank you jadi kawan aku time form 1 time sekda urang mok kawan ngan aku. walaupun lepas ya kita sik rapat gilak tapi kita rapat balit time form 4 nak? heee...

thank you for the late night birthday surprise time form 5. 

thank you jaga aku time aku demam teruk, ko tolong isik borang pegi klinik kat puan hawa, walaupun lepas ya kau gik demam and terpaksa kenak kuarantin sebab suspected H1N1. 

thank you for selalu jadi my personal driver aku mun aku ajak ko keluar, kau ambik aku di samarahan mun sekda urang mok ambik aku balit kuching, ko anta aku gi exam bila sekda urang nak anta aku.. 

thank you for being kawan gila aku bila aku rasa gila sebab aku rasa dolok aku sik gila pun. aku lah yang paling warassss sekali. lalalala~ 

banyak gilak nak di thank you aku ke kau. 

jadi to sum it all up, thank you for being where you are right now. 

THANK YOU SAZA. 

aku sangatlah xpande nak bermadah bahasa jadi what you see is what you get lah..

saza, kaulah antara perempuan yang aku rasa sangat tabah dan sangat positif.

you make difficult things easy, 

you make depressing situations fun, 

you change tears to laughter. 

you never see the worst of things. 

you always see the silver lining the clouds. 

well,

you ARE THE zetty amir.

*imaginary hug* a long one...

xoxo,

-FF-

p/s: tolong jangan ungkit this post bila kita bersua muka! malu tauk! ksaza!

MY SATURDAY NIGHT

assalamualaikum people!

just got back from FSKPM 8 INTELLIGENCE TALENT SHOW in UNIMAS with nisa.

i just HAVE to post this before i forgot. 

nisa insisted on me to go with her. she even said she would pick me up then send me back home and that she'll buy the ticket for me. i just couldnt say no so yeah.

she fetched me up so early that i made her wait for me.

 random fact: i dont like people to wait for me. mama always said, 

"dont let people wait for you, you're the one who should be waiting." 

i guess i took this advice too serious and that's why im still waiting for mr right because he shouldnt be waiting for me. 

eh? ok merapu.

anywhoooooooo we stopped by The Spring because it was still too early and also because amy said she bought a pair of PDI jeans for only 30 bucks. 

unfortunately we didnt find it. oh well....

so we walked around keluar masuk kedai and ended up having our early dinner. 

we even stopped by for starbucks before heading to UNIMAS. 

nisa was annoyed by the cashier who happened to be someone that she knows. 

long story short, she said something like, 

"do you want to top up? or this is your last 20 bucks in your wallet? if that's the case then i understand."

oookaaaaayyyyyy...

so the event supposed to start at 7.30 and we arrived 15 minutes late and you guess it right! 

the event started  at 8 30. janji melayuuuuuu...

among the performances are fashion show, martial arts, drama, singing, live band and to top it all, MODERN DANCE! 

GOOD GIRLS GONE WILD!! 

we blamed the starbucks for making us so hyper that we didnt care what other people think.

we shouted the performers' names out randomly..

we sang along to the singing performances..

we cheered for hot/cute guys... 

we danced along to the modern dance performance like CRAYYYY! 

memang mun ada urang laki jatuh cinta ngan mek duak malam tok tek terus turn off nangga olah sik kedak anak melayuuu.. 

heheh..

i came back finding that the gate is locked and had to call for someone to open the gate.

i guess that's my saturday night, how's yours?

xoxo,

-FF-

LIFE UPDATES!

assalamu alaikum!

hi! remember me?

yes. the reason i havent updated my blog for so long is that i was somewhere out of malaysia enjoying my vacation before because i can.

PFFT.. I WISH.

i know right? i lost track of my life ever since i was 21... GOSH.. is this how it feels like to be old??? NOOOOOOOOOO!

i dont even have a turning 21 post. my life is now a disaster. please pray for me. *bismillahirrahmanirrahim......*

ok enough ranting. here's some updates:

turned 21 on february 11, together with taylor lautner (yes. mok padah jwak!). had dinner with le familia and adik was there too because he was on his midterm break. thank you mama and ayah for the dinner! thank you adek and ayu for the card and the plaque and the book! thank you people for the wishes on facebook, twitter, and not to forget for calling and texting and bbming me! heart heart heart you guys mmuuuaaahhhh!

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started my 4th semester as a cognitive science student on the february 18. remeber that i missed the bus to class on my first day of last semester? i missed it again this semester. i guess i was cursed to miss the bus on the first day. oh well... and oh! i am not in the same class as anis and/or girl this semester because they managed to register for elective class which i did not. so i ended being in the class sitting with random people and being in the same group with different people. hey, its kinda fun!

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sent everyone to the airport on february 21. they were all going to johor then singapore for a holiday. i didnt tag along because i have class and that i had to be a road runner for the neneks at home. not much of a help though. heheh.. went karaoke-ing with amy that friday to kill time because i need to fetch nek ni from the dialysis centre at 7 30 pm. went out with syaza the friend the next day. karaoke lagi... and went to the funfair with amy, atul and nellie that night. i only went on the spinning ride then i was all dizzy and couldnt get on more rides. boo me...! see? not much of a help right? heheh..

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celebrated syaza's birthday on march 2. but we did had lunch together at chicago 7 because muni wanted to eat there. then we went karaoke-ing in which muni refused tapi nya jwak yang over berlaguuuuu... i promised her a birthday shout out but didnt manage to do that because i had an assignment due that sunday. soooooooo HAPPY 21 SYAZA IZZATI BINTI MOHD AMIR!! kelak aku polah sigek post khas pake kau sorang ah.. xoxo

there are more to update. but i guess i'll just post it in another entry.

i gotta go! toodles!

xoxo,

-FF-

ANOTHER GLOOMY DAY

assalamualaikum.

something doesn't feel right. 

it's like as if i did something wrong but i'm not aware of what's the thing that i did wrong. 

it's like turning 19 all over again. 

Ya Allah, help me endure this. 

if there really is something i did wrong, please forgive me. 

and if my wrong is to another sister or brother, 

please open up their heart to forgive me for whatever i did wrong.

:)

xoxo,

-FF-

INSECURITY KILLS THE INSECT

assalamualaikum and whaddup!

i must say, i'm the most insecure person on earth. i'm not sure why, but it surely is disturbing.

1) sometimes when i go out, i always feel that there's something that's not right whether it's my clothes, my face or my whole look for the day..

2) when i enter a store, and i get that weird stare, i would start checking out myself if there's something wrong. to make myself feel better, i will positively think that probably they're just looking around and bam! there i was.

3) when i pass by a group of people and they suddenly laugh or smirk, i always think that they're laughing at me. and i'll said to myself  "i know my defects. please dont laugh.." even though they were actually laughing at something else.

4) i think that i annoy people when they stop talking to me, or stop texting, or replying me. even though there's a whole lot of other reasons to that. i told ya. it's my insecurities..

5) and oh.. i always think that many people dont really like me that they will always avoid me because i talk too much and they dont wanna listen to my stories because it's too boring. i usually stop talking when i get that vibe.

there's a whole lot more of this. i feel self insecure almost everytime. THIS has to stop.

xoxo

-FF-

KK VACAY - SUPER!

Day 3 - January 23, 2013

rise and shine! 

couldn't really sleep last night because it was too cold even though the room is not air-conditioned. 

kept on waking up and finally switched off the fan.

Maggi in cup for breakfast before walking to Poring to enjoy some hot spring and of course the famous canopy walk. 

we were not allowed to take photos on the canopy unless you pay RM5 for each camera you used.

rebellious teenagers as we are, we didn't pay but girls gotta be girls. 

dozens of photos taken on the canopy and we didn't even pay for it. 

i know. we were such badasses. 

*insert badass pose*

we had luch at Mama Cafe again before heading back to KK. 

we supposed to meet up with Ann, Kele and Eric again at KFC but apparently the electricity suddenly went out. 

we didn't wanna have cold meal because we were super hungry. 

so yeah..

we said goodbye to Ann, Kele and Eric. 

and oh! Ann brought her cute little brother along. 

he was super friendly. 

i love that kid. he hugged me before we went back. 

Boboy is so huggable!

Roomates! (Ann on the left and Sofia on the right)
That's Boboy! see how huggable he is??

Kele, Ann, Sofia, Muni, Eric..
Boboy and me!

we stopped by for some durian because it was super cheap. 

RM3 per kilo! 

i ate one whole durian and a half. 

bet you can guess how i slept that night.. 

heheh..

the upside down house was just by the roadside on our way back to KK. 

we passed by it on our way to Kundasang but Roza and Sofia planned that we went there on our way back.

the house was really upside down.

see?

now how did that get up there?

front door

roza and sofia didn't go in with us because they said they went there so many times that they memorised every angle of the house.

everything about the house is upside down. 

ALL the stuff in the house are upside down. 

i cannot show how the inside looks like because no camera is allowed in the house. 

ok. 

imagine youe house is upside down. 

yep. 

now you get the picture.

the heaviest thing in the house is the sewing machine and yes. it is upside down. 

the lady in the house said all the stuff are attached to the ceiling with nails, screws and some are with glue.

wait, floor? ceiling? ok now im confuse.

then we went to roza's rental house to help her pack. 

we headed to Perdana Park later to watch the fountain orchestra. 

munirah was so excited. 

not that i wasnt excited but i was trying to record the fountain in action with my phone.

but it ended up with munirah voice. 

in my video. 

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i could say it is a perfect dating spot for couples. oh! and perfect spot for a marriage proposal. 

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note that future husband!

we went back home early that night because everyone was tired and another long day planned ahead.

sooo ummm.. good night!

xoxo,

-FF-

DEAR EARTHLINGS,

assalamualaikum.

this post is dedicated to those who are applying for jobs, or will be applying for jobs. doesnt matter if it's a part time or a full time job. in fact, it applies to every human being.

SMILE and MANNERS.

xoxo
-FF-

WHOSE DAUGHTER ARE YOU AGAIN?

assalamualaikum and whaddup!

visited my paternal grandma after Asar prayer. every time we came to visit, she'll always ask;

"anak sapa tok?" (whose daughter is this?)

i'll smile and answer:

"anak amid, nek.." (amid's daughter..)

it happens everytime.

xoxo
-FF-

KK VACAY - KUNDASANG!

DAY 2 - January 22, 2013

assalamualaikum and whaddup!

gotta wake up extra early because uncle joe had to catch the traffic rush to his office. 

we followed him there because we promised to meet at 7am for our trip to kundasang!

yyyeeepp.. 7 am lah sangattt.. they arrived around 9.30 am. 

so uncle joe brought us to the nearby cafe for breakfast. we ordered baked beans an egg! 

my favorito! 

despite the american breakfast we had, check this out:

the new american way to spell service i guess

the scenery along the way to kundasang was superb! 

can't capture much on my crappy phone though. but roza's new htc phone ada banyak! 

heheh.. 

and also sofia's dslr.

it's the peak of the highest mountain in southeast asia!

camwhoring in the car is a must!

we didnt use the car aircond because they have aircond outside! it was sooooooo cold that i actually shivered. fresh air i tell you! until a truck passed by. =='

our first stop was the kinabalu park to see a clearer view of the kinabalu peak. roza said that this is the point where all the hikers start hiking up the mountain.

the peak shy shy cat pulak...

next stop: strawberry garden! the entrance was only RM1. 

unfortunately there were no strawberries. we entered just because roza told me there were flowers inside.

 orchids specifically. 

and i get super excited and agreed to go inside. 

to find out there were no orchids. =='

imagine this with red ripe strawberries....

from the strawberry garden, we went to the war memorial park.

 well its a memorial park so lotsa memorial stuff? i just knew that sabah was once dijajah by australian. 

i didnt really take much photos with my phone there because sofia, my roomate while i was in labuan brought her dslr so most of the photos are still with her.

im not sure what it means but i think it's kinda deep..

layan jadi minah ostolia kejap xsalah nak? ahaks!

view of Kundasang from a balcony at the park

oh ya.. as we arrive at the memorial park, there were one group of good looking guys. they were saying "KL" when we passed by.

im not sure whether they thought we were from KL or they were trying to tell us they're from KL because they have the KL slang.

from the memorial park we went to Desa Cattle where we met Ann, also my roomate in labuan. memang janji nak jumpa cos she lives in Ranau which is not so far away from kundasang.

moo!

baa!

we were super hungry so we went to meet Eric, Ann's friend and also Kele, my negihbour back in labuan.

after the superb lunch, we proceeded to Tagal Luanti. 

it's one of the main attraction in Ranau. 

a must-go-place if you come to Ranau. 

Sofia told me that we were going for a fish massage. 

but she forgot to tell me the size of the fish that's gonna "massage" us. 

it's as big as my arm i tell you!

i didn't dare to get in.

no. 

NEVER.

then we went to Sabah Tea plantation. that's where they plant, and process the tasty Sabah Tea. duh~

and then we were hungry again and we went to Mama Cafe for an early dinner. 

Eric and Kele created a new religion where they recited their prayer (before meal) by snapping photos of the food. 

hahah! 

Eric made me think of the people in Africa who can't afford to buy food because i didn't finish mine. 

sorry but i was just too full.

we hung out for a while before leaving to our lodge house we rented earlier. it was located a few steps away from Poring Hot Spring.

we slept very early that night because we were very tired from the long day we had earlier. you know what, we didn't need to switch on the fan or aircond because the fresh air outside cools the room entirely.

phew! what a long day.. looking forward for the next day!

xoxo,

-FF-

KK VACAY - HELLO!

DAY 1 - January 21, 2013

assalamualaikum and whaddup!

munirah had this free ticket from her dad to Kota Kinabalu so she ajak me and parina to tag along. 

but of course it's only free for munirah.

so parina and i had to pay for our own ticket.

my mama was ok with it but not parina's dad.

roza who is already in KK for she studies there didnt know i was coming so it's  gonna be a surprise for her.

teehee!

uncle joe (muni's dad) fetched us from the airport. 

we stopped by the house to unpack some stuff to be packed again for the activity roza had planned. banana boat ride kata nyaa..

 we promised to meet at uncle joe's office because it's weekdays and in case of the traffic jam. plus they said it's nearer.

some scenery i managed to catch on our way to uncle joe's office

there was some small party at uncle joe's office so we tumpang makan while waiting for roza and sofia. janji melayu biasalaahh.. 

uncle joe has some cute young officers working under him. they kept calling uncle joe "bapak".

i dont really understand what happened until munirah told me that they were actually flirting with us.

ohhhhh...

i just love the look on roza's face when she saw me. heheh.. surprise! sik smepat nak ambik gambar muka nyaa.. but....

surprise roza - check!

after stopping by roza's rental house for zuhur jamak asar, of we go to karambunai! 

remember plan A was to go for banana boat ride? yeah..sik jadi. because it was too expensive. i dont really mind paying RM40 for the ride. 

but the problem was everybody else haven't withdraw money so i had to pay for everyone first. 

i aint got enough money to pay RM40 x 5 + entrance fee 

so we went kayaking instead which is only RM15 for a double-sitter boat not including the entrance fee.

but the kakak at the counter gave us discounts which we only have to pay RM16 including the entrance fee ....

i dont know maybe we were friendly?

heheh

all geared up and excited!

sejam berjemur di pantai, off we go to the floating mosque for a pedal-boat ride! we pedaled until the traffic is clear. it was 4 pm and people were all rushing to go home.

the "floating" mosque

roza thought of bringing us to the aquarium in UMS but it was closed so we ronda-ronda in UMS. 

UMS is HUGGGGEEEE!! VERY HUUUUUUGGGGE! 

despite the HUGE compound, the buildings are HUGE  too! 

all the buildings are pink which makes it so cute. 

hahah..

they have their own research institute and what not.

if UNIMAS has a lake for recreation, UMS has it's own beach!

check out!

we managed to cathc the sunset!

Subhanallah! (not bad for a blackberry phone camera)

we were super hungry after the sunset so we went to 1Borneo Hypermall for dinner before movie.

muni sorang jak dah mnunjukkan how lapar we were.. heheh..

while waiting for the movie at 9.25 pm, i managed to grab a pair of pants, a pair of flats and a blouse. obviously shopping like that memang sik puas lah. grrrrr...

oh.. guess what movie we watched? MAMA. which i watched it already the day before with laila and awang  (yes i was the 3rd wheel). i cried for the second time watching it because the ending was very touching. sobss.. :'(

we arrived home around midnight and poor uncle joe had to wait for us to open the door because we aint got no key. sorry uncle joe..

it was a long loooong day.. prayed, pulled over the blanket and good nite!

xoxo

-FF-

p/s: there was this handsome pilot at the airport who tegur us with "assalamualaikum" and a smile! handsome,  uniform with black shades. *fangirl scream* turns out he's married. =='