NIGHTMARE OR NAY?

I dont know why but that dream is haunting me.
Maybe because it's my first
And i dont really know what to do.
Like seriously.
My brother follows my blog
but i dont think he'd read my recent posts
because if he did
he wouldve text me like poret.

My mom and aunty still think im imaginatively dating syed fuad.
Yes dolah.
I have an imaginary boyfriend which mama approved.
*insert evil emoji*

So i dreamt that i had the talk with ayah one day.
He asked me who's my boyfriend.
So i mentioned dolah.
Then he laughed like real hard.
Then i asked him why.
He asked me what happen to my actor boyfriend
And i was like who? Lautner?
Then he was like. Yes. Him.
And i was like. Ayah,he was never my boyfriend.

So now everytime mama called
I always hope that mama wont even mention a thing about guys
Because im still not ready to tell.
I mean
How do you introduce your partner to your parents?
How do you do that?
Apparently asking dolah gave no result because he doesnt know it too.
We came up with a solution.
Raya visiting.

But still.
How??

I guess we have to wait for next year to know that.
InshaAllah...

Yerrrrrrrrrr fatin.

Bye.

P/s: maybe that dream is a good sign

I WANNA TAKE YOU OUT ON A DATE

Kyle: nak letak bag sini lah dekat cikgu. Cikgu kan cantik, pretty, wonderful..

Me: really? You think so?

Kyle: mm-hmm.. i wanna take you out. Buy you shoes, baju, bags. Bring you makan.. nak tak?

Me: nak! Bila?

Kyle: next time laa.. when im 18, ill have my own car. Then i take a test. To drive.

Me: then you bring me?

Kyle: ya laa.. i buy flowers, chocolates, then give to you lah..

Me: awwwww... so sweet..

Kyle iqram, 11

P/s: dolah, top that.  :p

RAYA 2014

Not too late to wish you selamat hari raya kan?
So selamat hari raya!!
I was working on my internship weekly report
which i stopped doing after week 2
Because im lazy like that.
But then i got bored and distracted
And hence the procrastination.
Ngeeee~~

Plus
Someone's busy doing his lesson plans and ABM
sebab ada observation tomorrow
So
Lets not disturb him okay?

So what's my raya been like this year?
Hmmmmm lemme see....

Slept for only like 3 hours or less, cleaning and decorating the house on raya eve
With a lil bit help from le brother
as well as pak osen and family.

raya day 1 was kinda hambar
So went out with amy and laila and her lil sister
For some chocolate brownies
Because well someone was craving for it and it wasnt amy or laila let alone her lil sister.

Raya day 2 with la famile
Which ended at Mok's house
Because Pak Asan had a lot of fireworks and decided to play it that night.

Raya day 3 with amy
Went to lina's open house
And boy her mom made the best rendang ever!
Since nobody else were home
So we went to sugarbakes for some tea
Because it was raining
And because amy didnt wanna go home yet
She had a family gathering that night so she sent me home before maghrib.
So managed to have some friends over.
Thanks nini eja nadia parina dolah abang hisyam and friends zikri salam samim ismail anip jaha munir and azam for coming!!

Raya day 4 with my other girls
Went to nini's open house with saza and muni
then met up with ajwad and arief
Went to eja's then roza's then amy's which i met up with fahdina then sent fahdina home which we met up with salam and ended up sending muni back with salam's car because was too lazy to drive.
Oh dont worry.
I left my car at fahdina's so went to get it after..

Raya day 5 were full of open houses.
Lunch at pak osen's
Hi-tea at saza's
Dinner at nisa's.

Stayed home on day 6
Because natasha wanted to come over.
Waited for her since morning and she only came after asar.
Went to watch guardians of the galaxy
With dolah that night
Im which i slept during most of the movie.
So much for a first date.
Hnnnnnnnghh..

Day 7?
Back to KL for i have work on monday.

I think that's about it.
Better get back to my report.

How's your raya?

ACHIEVEMENT UNLOCKED

Raya day 3,
If amy didnt have to go for a family gathering,
If i hadnt be home by maghrib,
If i wasnt being all random and said what i said,

I wouldnt have met you.

To know that someone appreciates you as you are,
That somoeone thinks you're cool and that the other men are blind not to notice that,
That someone is afraid to lose you to the other men,
That someone wouldnt let you be a cat lady living alone with 27 cats,

Is kinda awesome.
Thank you and i hope you meant every word.

Okay sila ingga bye.

ANOTHER DEPRESSING POST

Assalamualaikum and good night peeps!

AL-FATIHAH

Salam. Uncle TJ and family on MH17. Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi rajiun.

it never cross my mind that someone so close would get involve in such tragedy.

all there're left are memories..

i remember Uncle TJ would always crack jokes with mama when they meet.

i remember Aunty Ariza picking us up from school when ayah was busy with stuff.

She drove a green kelisa with colourful steering wheel.

i remember Afif, Afzal, Marsya and Afruz were all so small and cute the last time we met.

Al-Fatihah.

Surely we belong to Allah and to Him shall we return.

FORGIVE AND FORGET

So I just watch the viral peugeot ccm 25 video.

I dont know about you but I cried.
Why?
Because somehow it's sad.
A muslim yelling at the old non muslim chinese.
It's just so embarassing.
Like what the hell
I  doubt that he did it on purpose.
What's in it for him to langgar the peugeot on purpose?

Kan berik malu urang islam jak gia?
Islam taught us to forgive and forget.
Not to yell and bash.

Embarassing.
Just.
Plain.
Embarassing.

HURT

the least i could do is be happy for you..
even though there's a whole major part of me that's hurting..
because to love is to let go.. (really?)

i cannot blame you for not being aware..

it's entirely my own fault for not letting it out..

isnt it stupid to be scared of your own feelings?

to be scared of losing?

to be scared of the fact that we dont own the world?

come on, girl.

be sensible.

be realistic.

it's a crazy world out there.

crazy.

CRAZY.

HOW WAS YOUR DAY?

Hi babe! I miss you! So how was your day?  Tell me ALL about it... im all ears.

A text or a even better, a call from a boyfriend is what I long for..
To hear my everyday rants...
My everyday stories....

Hmmmmm...

P/s: sorry for being too emotional on this matter while it was something that I shouldn't be wasting my time on.

BEING SPECIAL

Assalamualaikum!

Despite the fact that i dont really like kids, Im enjoying my internship.
Today was internship day 2 and I just got my daily schedule since she was absent yesterday.
Miss azhani is really nice.
I like her A LOT.
She has IT backgroind and somehow ended at CADS.

What's CADS you ask?
It stands for cerebral palsy, autism, dyslexia & down syndrome and slow learners.
It's a school for the special kids.
Trust me, they are very special in their own way.
That's why I enjoy it so much.
You get to see different behaviours everyday.
If I were to tell you how they were like, this post wont be enough.
Not even the whole blog.
There's so much stories to tell.
Every kid has their own story.

So I was briefed (is this a word?) By miss hani today on what Im suposed to do as a teaching assistant.
Yep!
You're now reading TEACHER FATIN'S blog. Lol
My working hours is from 0800 to 1500.
Im on children duty every day in which I look after the children while waiting for someone to pick em up.
No formal wear to work but doesnt mean I can wear jeans.
Raya holiday is one week.
Yep! Gonna be in kuching for that one whole week woohoo!
And for a friend's birthday as well.

What else can I say?
I love my job!
And let's just hope it will be consistent okay?
InshaAllah..

Oh
I was moved by watching the kids performing Zuhur prayer just now.
Despite their disabilities and speech impairment, they were taught to sujud to The Almighty.
They memorised the bacaan bacaan solat as well as the doa selepas solat

What about us?
Created as normal beings, no impairments whatsoever.
Why won't we sujud to Him?
Are we not grateful?
Astaghfirullahalazim.

Think about it.
Jom muhasabah diri.
Assalamualaikum.